Long overdue update

Hey everyone,

I’ve owed you all an update for a good chunk of time already, and I finally have one for you. I’m sorry it’s taken so long. These past few months have been absolutely wretched.

They say that your first wlw break-up will absolutely wreck you, and that was very much true for me. When my girlfriend dumped me and broke my heart in early September, it sent me into a long downward spiral. I had already stopped being able to write while we were together for reasons I don’t even understand, and heartbreak dried up my entire well of creativity. Then, at the end of November, my best friend of 23 years also friend-dumped me. I had the audacity to hold him accountable for lying to me repeatedly. December was swamped with work - my regular, FT job, my side gig running a church music program, and carolling gigs - and I was swamped with misery, too.

This past year I’ve also had a bunch of injuries (a sacroiliac joint that won’t stay in place, 4 herniated discs in my neck (C3-C6), chondromalacia patella, aka runner’s knee in both knees and arthritis developing in one). If that wasn’t even, I’ve also discovered that I have PMDD, which is like PMS but so much worse, which has included mood dips that have crashed into rock bottom pretty regularly. I’m having surgery on New Year’s Eve, an endometrial ablation, D&C, and an IUD inserted, so that’s supposed to be helping. The mood lows and all the physical ailments have made working out, my standard stress-reliever, extra difficult, too, so it’s just been a cocktail of crap, honestly.

I think I’m beginning to heal emotionally, and for a few days now, I’ve been feeling the itch to write again. Today it finally happened, and I wrote a goodly chunk on my Good Omens fic! I could almost cry - I’ve missed writing so much and it’s so good to have it back!

I’ve lost the majority of my supporters on my patreon, and I can’t blame anyone, given my lack of productivity. But if you’re still someone who is supporting me financially, or even just still reading my fics (and I am still getting and responding to comments, I promise!), THANK YOU! Thank you for still finding my stuff worth coming back to. Thanks for still liking my stories. Thanks for still engaging with my tumblr, even though I’ve been so absentee. It means so much to me. And hopefully I’ll have actual fic for you sooner rather than later!! The GO fic is currently at 30,400 words and finally growing again! I also have a hiking-theme Johnlock fic that’s next in the queue after that - it’s already started, but got stalled.

Happy New Year! I may be starting mine in a hospital, but at least my muses are with me again. <3