invisible me II

KODAK Digital Still Camera

so i talked to my internal family system last night.
i tried to explain to them (because i don’t know who exactly holds the strings here, i just addressed the whole group)
i tried to explain to them that
yes
being invisible was once an imperative
it kept me safe from a violent father & a distant mother
it let me keep my dignity and my sanity
but now
now being invisible is hurting me
how can i find love
how can i find an audience
how can i function in a healthy & productive way
if no one can see me?
i begged them to listen. i begged them to start unraveling those bandages that cover me.
once upon a time invisibility kept me safe
today it is slowly suffocating me.

KODAK Digital Still Camera

the top image is a sigil i did for an “i am seen” spell using veronica varlow’s book bohemian magick.