Fighting the Unplanned Battles

This was not the post I planned to make today. But this is the one that needs to be written. The post that I am writing raw and in the moment.

I awoke this morning at 4:37am with a heaviness in my chest and dread in my mind. Fighting myself to go back to sleep. The counting and breathing exercises not doing much. I drifted off into a restless fit of lucid dreams until my alarm woke me at six.

I sat with my hand over my rapidly beating heart thumping like the beat of a tom drum. I hear the so...