No Point in Holding One.
Are you holding a grudge? About?
They hold a grudge like it was their family treasure.”
Throughout my life I have tried to be kind, honest and respectful. The older I get the wiser I become and now realise that you can’t change the spots on a leopard 
. No matter how thoughtful or kind you are, or how much you want to understand other people’s points of view, it’s useless unless they are willing to listen to your point of view, too.
I’ve never seen the point of holding a grudge, simply because you gain nothing from it. My life has always been about finding peace. Once I was older enough to start work I have done whatever I could to be self-sufficient and not to rely on the adults in my life. I have often found myself alone especially when my first marriage broke down, leaving me with a young son who needed me to be strong.
My safe space The most important thing was to have a safe place for my son to grow up in. I needed peace in my life so anything that disturbs my equilibrium I turned my back it including disgruntled family members.
From an early age, I realised adults were not always truthful. They can behave badly like spoiled children and carry grudges for many years, if not, forever to their grave.
Just recently I found out that someone I thought a great deal of held a grudge against me. Their nasty, bitter words cut me to the core, but I soon realised the child within them had no one left to turn their anger towards following the deaths of their mother, brother and husband.
Over the years they had shared many unhappy memories and experiences with me. I sat quietly and listened as they laid their cards on the table.
At some point they realised they had told me too much, and I had shared so little information with them. They had nothing to manipulate me with or to hold over me. Instead I told them I didn’t want to discuss others behind their backs.
I feel sad that they directed their bitterness at me for so many years. Now they are being laid to rest, maybe they can stand before their Mother, brother and husband and tell them why they have been so unhappy 
during their life on earth.
As I write this I am in my art studio surrounded by blank canvases, paintings, brushes and paints. In my life, I have no need to hold a grudge, bitterness or anger. If raw emotions bubble to the surface in me, I turn them in characters in my books or short stories. This way I can deal with the unhappiness others have created in my life.
It’s important to find the goodness in others, but sometimes it is important to walk away from those who disturb your peace of mind.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post
Be happy. 
