Release

I forgive you for all of the pain you caused. And I forgive me for holding on to it for so long. You do not owe me anything and I no longer bind you to me in wounded frustration, fear, anger, or loss. I no longer bind myself by reliving those years in different faces, or places, or things. You did the best you could, I see that now, though I won’t deny that your best caused so much pain. I release you from the unfair expectation to understand, to admit, to change, to heal. That direction was never mine to give in the first place. I release me from the template you handed me, as I set out to forge my own. No longer must we be pulled by invisible threads – of regret or suffering, denial, fear, anger, or loss. Let us both be free of any stubbornly held attachments to the past, because the wound may have been there but the medicine lives here. I forgive you for all that was wrong and I release you from the need to make it right. That responsibility is my own. Go in peace and know that you are loved, and I am too, in all that we were so many years ago, all that we are, and in all that we have yet to become.

©️ Cristen Writes