Wed. May 8, 2024: Enjoying Spring While Planning the Work
image courtesy of Morten via pixabay.comWednesday, May 8, 2024
Waxing Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Warm and rainy
There’s a post up on Ink-Dipped Advice about how digital tidiness helps focus. It should have been up last week, but it’s up this week (hey, I’m tidying up) and you can read it here.
Yesterday’s new moon was also a good chance to get the blog over on the Cerridwen Iris Shea site up with a tarot reading and a clean up of some other pages. I’ll be adding more material to the web pages over the summer and trying to be steadier about blogging there, too. You can read the reset post here.
My colleague Deborah Blake has a new oracle deck out today, The Everyday Witch’s Familiar Oracle. Check it out. I’m very excited for her and about the deck.
Today’s Angel Hunt Episode:
Episode 135: Lianna Faces Her Captors
Lianna faces her captors and demands answers.
Today’s Deadly Dramatics Episode:
Episode 123: Nina Tries to Talk Sense
Nina tries to talk the killer down.
Only 5 more episodes in the season!
I uploaded and scheduled the remaining episode videos for DEADLY DRAMATICS, and then I did the binge videos in TikTok, Wide, and Instagram formats for next week. I will push those once a week for a month once Monday’s season finale episode goes live.
The doctor was late calling my mom and then it was a five-minute conversation telling her she’s fine. So we spent weeks being stressed out for nothing.
But it’s still a relief.
Folded the laundry and put it away. Mailed bills/residency deposit. Picked up my mom’s prescriptions. Picked up a few things at another store. Wrote the post for the Cerridwen’s Cottage blog and cleaned up some of the other pages. Wrote the Ink-Dipped Advice post and scheduled it to drop this morning.
Had a quick bite, and then drove to Williamstown for my meeting. I made a quick stop at the Spruces to take some pictures because it was such a gorgeous day I wanted some photos.
We met at the Spring Street Café in Williamstown, a new stop for me. My friend Glory Anne opened her Bobba lounge two doors down, but is closed on Tuesdays, or we could have gone there. We were lucky to grab an outside table and have a nice chat. She thinks I’m doing fine; I need to reset my trauma response (which sounds like it’s an overreactive phrase, but that’s the only wording that fits) and not panic and hold the course when it comes to pitching for work and expanding. I know what to do; it’s the steady self-marketing and building contacts/pitching/LOIs that have to continue in order for it to pay off in a very literal sense. At least people get it here, and there’s not that constant sense of pressure and failure and demand to work for free because what I do isn’t “real work” that there was in the previous location. But I do need to move out of panic mode/survival mode and work on the reality of the moment, what’s good about it, and building on it.
I’m not necessarily sure of the “how” but I understand the “what.”
I have to stop being afraid, every time I start to feel happy and on the right track that another shoe will drop.
I even had time to change at home (although I had everything in the car with me, just in case I had to change at the yoga studio).
I only stayed for the gentle yoga class, and it was difficult to get my mind to stop racing and quiet down for the class. It was beyond monkey mind. It was more like a pack of baby squirrels racing around mind.
I picked up takeout on the way home, ate way too fast, and jumped on a Zoom call about a potential project that I would like to do, but unless there’s a contract in place with decent payment, I am not doing it now. Put me on contract, pay me, you get my time and attention. Talk in vague terms about maybe-someday and it stays in maybe-someday. I have bills to pay.
A friend in yoga class had a family member in Vaudeville and lent me a set of photos she has. She’s not sure how to research them, so I’m going to do some research for her in the coming weeks, along with using them as background for my Vaudeville project. I’m looking forward to that.
The takeout did not agree with me, and I had a miserable night. I distracted myself by spinning pitches for magazine articles (something I talked to my cohort manager about yesterday). Let’s hope I remember at least some of them!
This morning, I will try to get some writing done (especially on Legerdemain). I’m at the Clark most of the day. There’s a lecture at 10 on oddities in the collection (it’s been postponed twice, so I’m glad it will finally happen). Then, I will do some ekphrastic work, have lunch, and go and do some research in the library, before heading over to Wild Soul River for tarot in the late afternoon.
I hope you have a great day!
