Book Review for Colossus by Ryan Leslie

I received this book for free. This did not impact my review in any shape or form.

Colossus, by Ryan Leslie, is a sci-fi epic about what it means to be immortal and whether or not chasing that immortality will give you everything you want. The book is separated into three parts. Dying Wish introduces Clay, a former economics professor who, after losing his wife to the drug Dying Wish, decides to go on a spaceship called Child in the Dark to get away from it all. Unfortunately, he finds himself trapped between (an admittedly one-sided war) two AIs, Justine and Esteban Bros. The second part, Oberon, provides backgrounds on both Justine and Esteban, all the while pondering on the morality of playing God. In the third and final part, Colossus, Clay takes advantage of his newfound quantum immortality to go back and try to save his wife, only to repeat the haunting mistakes that cost him nearly everything. 

I thought it was funny that, despite Gabriel’s pride clearly being the size of the earth, he wasn’t actually given any dialogue. True, he was this looming shadow figure who would gladly drag everyone down with him if it meant he could discover the secrets of the universe. But like all the results of human pride, he nearly killed everyone (actually everyone in other parallel universes). And what was the result of his ambition? An abandoned ship just floating in dead space while everyone else forgets the legacy you wanted to leave behind (except a drug that’s killing everyone). I would’ve loved to see how he would’ve fared on that ship with everyone. The fact that people were still loyal to him despite the mess he’s forced everyone into is a testament to how charismatic this man was. 

I feel like a more down-to-earth version of him was Clay. The utilization of all the Julians, him going back to the mess Gabriel trapped him in, all just to save his wife who had little to no chance of survival, to begin with; I don’t care what Karla was bragging about, her saving Clay from hell. They’ve lost everything, gave up everything, just to get some semblance of their old lives back. The only one who seemed to have some idea of what was going on was Mirabel, although I wouldn’t leave my community for any lump sum of money. Then again, I’ve never been in that situation before, so I couldn’t say.

When I was in college, my professor said that it made sense for there to be parallel universes. The equations are there, and the 50% chance statistic that this could all be a simulation keeps popping up now and then in pop culture. And now Marvel and DC are fumbling around with the multiverse. Do I think this may lead to immortality? Not really, considering all the other Robin Goodfellows have their own lives to live. Does it make me feel small? Significantly. Am I painfully aware that human pride can destroy everyone and everything around them? Yes. Moreover, a scene from the book that sticks out to me was when Esteban was experimenting with Justine and how, whenever she asked if he was God, he’d say he was. It was on his conscience then, the fact that whatever it was they were playing with was something they didn’t understand clearly. 

The Julians were hilarious. I don’t care how much of an existential nightmare this became; they were the one bright spot in this book I came to enjoy. Personally, I feel that, based on his experiences, quantum immortality doesn’t exist. If anything, it’s like a split consciousness, similar to the one in the video game SOMA. It’s not really you. It’s a part of you, true, but it’s not really you.

Objectively, this is an okay book with a lot of really cool concepts, but personally, it wasn’t my cup of tea. I loved the first part, but when the horror went away, it lost me. Drastically. The play on arrogance was excellent, but I would’ve preferred that to be intertwined with the terror I felt in the first book. As such, I’m gonna give this a 3 out of 5 stars.