A Third High Stress Week…..But I’m still Here!

Well, hello, everybody! As my entry title says, another high stress week…but I’m still here!

Ok, let’s see; last week and the week before, I had a cat so sick, I thought I was going to lose him. He relapsed and relapsed and, finally, he’s seems pretty normal. Last week, I had a serious car problem which led to a serious financial hardship, which led to panic. I was in an impossible financial position. I was in tears not knowing what I was going to do or how I was going to survive. Of course, this did my CFS/FM no good, but, guess what? Once again, The Lord gave me what I needed to get through all of this. He led me to the people and places He knew would help me and would care about me, once again reinforcing what I have always been taught; God is there whether you think so or not. You may not feel his presence at the time, as the devil does his best to prevent it, but, who always wins out in the end? Why, God of course!

I once read in book of devotionals how everything that happens during the day is meant for us. He does this for our good because they are opportunities for us to put our faith in Him. We are to turn our days over to Him and trust Him. Well, I had many questions regarding this during these past few weeks. I would ask Him as well as plead with Him, ” How can this be good for me? What good can possibly come out of all this stress; all this fear, all this panic, not to mention a poor little animal who never hurt anybody suffering so? How, God, how is this a good thing? Why are you doing this to me and to this poor, innocent creature who has been my comfort and my salvation through all the hard times in my life?”
Well, He not only got me through this rough time by giving me His Peace and leading me to things, places, and people I needed, but He brought my little salvation through it, too. He is no longer suffering. He is doing much better and is once again being my little buddy.

I trusted God. He gave me no choice. I prayed and I prayed hard, because that was all I could do. I did everything I possibly could as a human. God did what only He could do.

I thought of something a couple of nights ago as I was watching one of my favorite programs. So I asked Him, “Is this a lesson in humility? Is this what you are trying to teach me? Are you trying to teach me I am supposed to be trusting you instead of solving things my way?” Funny thing is, I always thought I was humble. I always had compassion for people who had it hard in their lives. I always gave when I could, and I always tried to help physically when I could.

The truth the matter is, you can’t completely understand or relate until you have been there yourself. Yeah, I think that is the lesson here. What God wanted from me was to understand these things more than on, “some level”. He wanted me to experience it first hand so I can understand it on the level where others are.

Anyway, enough surmising. The point is, God was by my side helping me through all the physical demands the high stress level put on my body. He helped me through the impossible financial position all of this put me in by leading me where I needed to go. Then, I was able to rest as needed and let my body heal. All in all, I wasn’t as bad off physically as I thought I would be. Ahhh….thanks be to God!

Well, those are my thoughts for this week.
Have a wonderful week and I will, “talk” to you next week.
Love & hugs,
Beckie

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