Learning to Trust My Instincts
View all responses“Trust instinct to the end, even though you can give no reason.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson May 25, 1803 – April 27, 1882)
I was in an unhappy marriage, without any means of supporting myself, or my young son, with no future before me.
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I knew life would be tough, but I trusted my instincts.
It paid off. I became far happier and my son, too who still had regular contact with his father. If I hadn’t trusted my instincts and jumped with both feet, I wouldn’t be sitting here today writing this.
After working hard at raising my son, clearing debts, and finding myself being made redundant three times in my working life, I finally decided to take my life in a different direction. Once again, I had to believe in my gut feeling, my instincts.
Could I become a published novelist when I didn’t understand how basic English grammar worked.
One day, while I sat working in a factory, surrounded by foreign workers for whom English was a second language, I found myself asking them how to spell a certain word. It struck me how crazy it was that I didn’t know or understand my own language. To have a Polish worker look down her nose at me and say, ‘But in Poland, we are taught English Grammar, and here in England, you leave school not understanding it.’
Our school system, like our schools are broken. Our children should be educated to a high standard. We should have the best schools and teachers that Britain can afford, rather than spending 3.6 billion a year (according to information from the UK Houses of Parliament site) in housing illegal migrants in this country. Once again, I’m back shouting about the importance of giving children a basic good education of writing, reading and maths so they can make choices in later life, as well as educate their own children.
Trust your instincts, believe in yourself and follow your dream. Create and ride your own wave. If you fall off, jump straight back and ride. No matter how long it takes you to achieve your dream.
I know my writing isn’t perfect yet. I’m still learning how to write the perfect story. I’m not even sure if I fully understand how English Grammar works, but I can see how far I have come.
Thank you for dropping by and I look forward to reading your comments.
