I'd mentioned awhile-two years ago?--back that I was working on a Christmas short story called The
Lemon Drop Kid. Welllll, the more I thought about that story and those characters, the more I realized 1 - Christmas story or not, I wanted to write it, and 2 - There was way too much story there for a short story.
Anyway, it's set at Christmas time, but I don't know that it's really a Christmas story. What I do know is, it's a bit of a departure for me. A little more emotional than of late? A little darker than of late, for sure.
BLURB
How The Cookie Crumbled
As sole heir to the Bredahl Cookiesand Cakes fortune, Casper led a comfortable, happy-go-lucky life. Some wouldsay, a charmed life.
Sure, there were challenges:relentless pressure to join the family business, and his unrequited feelingsfor former high school crush Raleigh Jackson. But yeah, a charmed existence,compared to life after being arrested for murder and spending nearly a year inChippewa Falls County Jail, awaiting trial.
Exoneration, freedom, came at toosteep a price. To say Casper isn’t in the mood for the holidays, is putting itmildly. In fact, the only thing he wants for Christmas is to see Detective RaleighJackson, the man responsible for wrongly putting him behind bars, get his justdesserts.
EXCERPT
As I stepped out of the wood line, I saw a black SUV parkedbehind the Range Rover. The SUV bore the familiar—and now dreaded—red and whiteinsignia of Little Copenhagen Police Department.
My heart stopped.
I’m not doing anything wrong. I’m allowed to be here.
Before panic—and rage—could take over, I recognized thetall, dark-haired figure peering through the driver’s window of my vehicle. Nouniform. A plainclothes officer. My heart kickstarted back into life, began to poundin a painful mix of anger and hatred—made even more painful by my recognitionthat even now, my instinctive reaction to seeing Raleigh was…delight.
Because I had loved him all my life. And as much as I hatedhim now, the conditioned reflex of my blood and bones to the surprise of seeinghim was…
Stupid.
Raleigh must have caught my approach out of the corner ofhis eye because he straightened up, turned. He didn’t look surprised, but thenhe’d have recognized the car.
The snow made a squeaky-creak sound as the ice crystalsshifted beneath my boots. It seemed to take a very long time to cross thatclearing. Raleigh didn’t move. He was too far away for me to read his face, butthen it was always hard to read his face.
I kept walking toward him, not saying anything, just lookingat him without any expression. You learn fast to hide your feelings in county. Youlearn fast not to have feelings.
Raleigh stared gravely back—his eyes were the color of theshadows on the snow. Maybe he was waiting for me to get closer than shoutingdistance or maybe he was waiting for me to speak first. If so, he was going towait a long time.
I was never willingly going to speak to him again.
Even as that thought formed, it was washed aside by the furynow always bubbling beneath the surface.
“Problem, Officer?” I sounded clipped because I was out ofbreath. It’s funny how anger winds you.
Raleigh gave a short shake of his head. “Hi Casper. Justmaking sure everything’s okay.” He dipped his head, drew a sharp breath. “Actually,I’m glad I—”
“Oh yeah,” I cut in. “Everything’s fantastic.”
His light gaze flickered.
“But you’re a detective now. You probably could tell that justfrom the way I parked.” I made a commiserating face. “Then again, you’re apretty shitty detective, so maybe not.”
Raleigh’s expression changed, grew stony.
Funny—crazy—that I had kissed that straight line of a mouth.That he had kissed me too. Not once, not twice, not by accident, not because we’dbeen drinking. Many times. Many kisses. I regretted every single one.
Raleigh didn’t sound stony though as he stumbled through hisdisjointed whatever-it-was-supposed-to-be. Explanation? It sure as hell wasn’tan apology. “Look, Casper. I was doingmy job. You know I didn’t—you think it was easy for me?”
“Oh my God,” My parka crinkled in the chilly air as I put ahand to my chest. “It must have been terrible for you. What am Ithinking? All those months you had to go on with your life and suffer throughgetting a big fat promotion you knew fucking well you didn’t deserve. How can Ibe so selfish?”
“I thought you were guilty!”
It seemed to bounce off the distant snowy hills.
And just like that I was calm again. Ice cold. “So you saidat the time.”
Both times. The night he arrested me. And the day he came tosee me in jail to explain why, friends or no friends, he couldn’t overlook mycommitting murder.
Raleigh was calmer too. Quieter. “Casper.”
“But like you said, nothing personal.”
“I never said it wasn’t personal. Of course, it waspersonal. I—” He gave a disarming swallow in the middle of it. “I cared foryou. You know that.”
“No doubt there.”
“But if you were capable of murder—”
“Except I wasn’t.”
He sounded sincere and kind, like the old once-upon-a-time-there-was-a-princeRaleigh. “I know that now. We all know that now. And I’m glad you’ve been exonerated.I can’t tell you how sorry I am for everything that happened.”
I smiled. “Worried about the lawsuit?”
He stared.
There wasn’t any lawsuit. Not yet anyway. My lawyer hadbroached the idea; I figured he was disappointed he hadn’t been able to makemincemeat of LCPD in court.
I laughed.
It wasn’t much of a laugh. It sounded like icicles falling.
I think one of those icicles must have found its target,because Raleigh seemed frozen. He continued to stare at me and then he snappedout of it.
His face was cold, his voice hard as he said, “Do your worst,Caz. In the meantime, what are you doing parked out here in the middle ofnowhere?”
I opened my mouth—the old Casper would have snapped backwith a smartass answer. But I was eleven months older and, if not wiser, muchmore careful. It took a lot to make Raleigh angry, but he was angry now. I didn’twant to push my luck. The idea of being arrested, jailed—for even fiveminutes—was enough to fill me with panic.
I understood how very fragile freedom was.
“Looking for Freyja. She ran away two days ago.”
He didn’t say anything for a moment. Raleigh was as crazyabout dogs as me. That was one thing we’d always had in common. For another, I’dgot Freyja from Linda, Raleigh’s mom. Linda raised golden retrievers. Raleigh’sdog Loki was from the same litter.
He said neutrally, “She’s chipped. Did you try the animalshelter and the vet clinics?”
“I tried.”
“I’m sorry. I’ll keep an eye out for her.”
I nodded, shrugged. “Thanks. I know she’s gone. She wouldn’tstay away this long.”
Just one more thing I blamed him for, and he probably saw itin my face.
He nodded curtly. “Drive safely. It’s getting dark.” Heturned his back on me, not waiting for the response that he correctly assumedwasn’t coming.
I didn’t watch him walk away. I unlocked the Range Rover,got inside, and started the engine—and nearly jumped out of my skin as someonethumped on the driver’s side window. Hard.
Raleigh glared down at me.
I fumbled to find the button to lower the window.
As the window slid down, he said hotly, “You know, I wasn’tthe only one. Everybody thought you were guilty—”
I said, matching his anger decibel for decibel, “You aren’t everybody,Raleigh. You knew me. You were my—” My voice gave a humiliating crack, but Igot control. “You were supposed to be my friend.”
He was supposed to be a hell of a lot more than my friend.
So far it's only listed on Amazon and Smashwords. I'll try to get it up everywhere else today.
(I guess there's still an issue with the book being searchable on Amazon's global sites, so here are some direct links to the obvious suspects)
https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B0CWB2T8DN Amazon UK
https://www.amazon.fr/dp/B0CWB2T8DN France
https://www.amazon.de/dp/B0CWB2T8DN Amazon Germany
https://www.amazon.it/dp/B0CWB2T8DN Italy
https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B0CWB2T8DN Canada
https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/B0CWB2T8DN Australia