Grief is back and it is for a different reason!
I always knew it would be there since after losing my mom 4 years ago I haven’t been the same since.
Grief will always be there around certain times no matter what but I didn’t expect to feel it for a different reason. Being laid off is a loss and I am experiencing grief all over again. Laid off is one of the worst feelings in the world it is also even more worse knowing you tried to improve and now it seems like 4 years wasted. I’ll never have faith in a day job again. Someone told me it was stable and a paycheck lies only stable until they don’t need you. Then you are tossed aside like nothing heck I was referred to as a resource. It was sooo tramatic losing it. Like stability gone and now I have to figure out what I want to do.
All the familiar emotions were there since I was angry, sad, depressed. I didn’t want to do anything. It sucks but it is what it is honestly since there is nothing I can do about it. It is my last week then after this no more day job. I’m not going to say work since I want to work but in a different way. Grief is just the worst feeling. Everyone is urging me to fill out endless apps to jobs just to have something. I don’t want to keep going with the rat race it just depresses me even more. Self-care is important during grief, feeling emotions and eventually things get better. I’ll be able to go outside and explore a new state it sucks it happened when I just moved into my own place. But maybe it means there is something better in store!
Luckily there is always writing and content. So many story ideas I can play with and there are a ton of games out I can even make my Youtube gaming channel with a ton of content too and a ton of writing, reading vlogs and even food and booze reviews. There is also a ton of content I can react to as well.
I’ll even do an unemployment diary for Medium and Substack, Ko-fi, Youtube and Tiktok subs. There is so many more ways to make money other then a boring 9–5 job anyway. I needed the time to work on my stuff mainly and I can see how fast I can write a book. It should give me a purpose to get out of my grief stuff. But stay tuned some awesome content and articles are in store!
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