Authenticity, Inward and Outward
The third in a series about my personal values. Part 1 here, Part 2 here.
I lived a big chunk of my life like a chameleon, changing who I was depending on the person I happened to be with. This behavior began when I was young, unformed, and figuring things out, so I give myself a little grace. I was a wanna be nerd… a wanna be jock… a wanna be metalhead, never going all in on anything, including myself.
But I allowed it to persist, for too long.
Why? Out of fear. That I would not be accepted, or that I would be judged, and rejected. Mocked, and humiliated.
The inauthentic life is a terrible one to live. I can tell you from experience.
That’s why my third value is authenticity, inward and outward.
Humans crave authenticity. Today more than ever, we need it. Not posturing on social media with false humility or false bravado. But people being who they are in the real world, living their inner lives outwards.
People are a miracle, each unique and irreplaceable. So why not embrace who you are?
Yet we often don’t. Because of social pressures, the feeling we should conform with the herd. Authenticity can come with a cost. It’s not always easy, and not always acceptable.
Many of these pressures are self-imposed. The result of self-shaming, or lack of confidence. Occasionally, they’re external.
I believe we have made progress as a society here. For example, “nerds” aren’t as picked upon, or mocked, as they once were. D&D players have even figured out a way to monetize the hobby and achieve celebrity status, for example (if someone can let this D&D player know how that’s done, let me know). Being gay is not the same stigma it once was, in most circles (I’m aware in some backward places and in some misguided hearts, it is. We’ll always have bigots, unfortunately).
Today harassment and bullying is rightly considered a toxic behavior, and tolerance and acceptance of others, virtues.
But even if the real fight is not from without, authenticity still takes bravery. It must start from within. To be truly authentic I believe you have to recognize that you are worthy of love. Easier said than done.
But it’s worth leaning into. You’ll lead a better life.
When you stop worrying what others think about you, you free up huge amounts of headspace. It is liberating and empowering. It might cost you some friends, but they were never your friends to begin with. Mature human beings don’t feel the need to hang out with people who are exactly the same as them, and accept differences.
Here’s a strategy for living your life more authentically.
Take your sense of self-worth down a peg. Recognize that no one sits around thinking about you—they’re too busy thinking about themselves. At least outside of your immediate family. Your spouse thinks about you, from time to time, and I’m sure your children do too. And vice-versa.
But for the most part everyone is walking around absorbed in their own problems, occupying their own headspace.
So stop caring so much what others think about you, because they’re actually not. If they do, it’s a passing thought, then they’re back to worrying about their own shit.
I’ve chosen to be me, not someone else.
Be true within; project that truth out. Live authentically.
I lived a big chunk of my life like a chameleon, changing who I was depending on the person I happened to be with. This behavior began when I was young, unformed, and figuring things out, so I give myself a little grace. I was a wanna be nerd… a wanna be jock… a wanna be metalhead, never going all in on anything, including myself.
But I allowed it to persist, for too long.
Why? Out of fear. That I would not be accepted, or that I would be judged, and rejected. Mocked, and humiliated.
The inauthentic life is a terrible one to live. I can tell you from experience.
That’s why my third value is authenticity, inward and outward.
Humans crave authenticity. Today more than ever, we need it. Not posturing on social media with false humility or false bravado. But people being who they are in the real world, living their inner lives outwards.
People are a miracle, each unique and irreplaceable. So why not embrace who you are?
Yet we often don’t. Because of social pressures, the feeling we should conform with the herd. Authenticity can come with a cost. It’s not always easy, and not always acceptable.
Many of these pressures are self-imposed. The result of self-shaming, or lack of confidence. Occasionally, they’re external.
I believe we have made progress as a society here. For example, “nerds” aren’t as picked upon, or mocked, as they once were. D&D players have even figured out a way to monetize the hobby and achieve celebrity status, for example (if someone can let this D&D player know how that’s done, let me know). Being gay is not the same stigma it once was, in most circles (I’m aware in some backward places and in some misguided hearts, it is. We’ll always have bigots, unfortunately).
Today harassment and bullying is rightly considered a toxic behavior, and tolerance and acceptance of others, virtues.
But even if the real fight is not from without, authenticity still takes bravery. It must start from within. To be truly authentic I believe you have to recognize that you are worthy of love. Easier said than done.
But it’s worth leaning into. You’ll lead a better life.
When you stop worrying what others think about you, you free up huge amounts of headspace. It is liberating and empowering. It might cost you some friends, but they were never your friends to begin with. Mature human beings don’t feel the need to hang out with people who are exactly the same as them, and accept differences.
Here’s a strategy for living your life more authentically.
Take your sense of self-worth down a peg. Recognize that no one sits around thinking about you—they’re too busy thinking about themselves. At least outside of your immediate family. Your spouse thinks about you, from time to time, and I’m sure your children do too. And vice-versa.
But for the most part everyone is walking around absorbed in their own problems, occupying their own headspace.
So stop caring so much what others think about you, because they’re actually not. If they do, it’s a passing thought, then they’re back to worrying about their own shit.
I’ve chosen to be me, not someone else.
Be true within; project that truth out. Live authentically.
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