Wait et see

    Dearest, It was late as I remembered, but early as I cared to tell you a Nikon of things. Had you been better. But instead I stepped  back and I shut all of my senses out, I said,“self you must be brave and hope, always in faith.” I can tolerate a lot but life dearest you was tough lately. It was ironic that my whole little life I was called iron heart. We smile shall we, I was called a lot of other things that hath flattered  I not. Today I got a call, it was ordinary In it’s  welcome except well- they said you were home now. I smile writing this because  in life home isn’t where your heart is.
You are dead. Gone. Home. I was alone. I had hunters to my throat. Thorns to my feet. And sorcerers to my door. But i stood still and I believed. Though every step of this way my tear felt like I was hanging in a cave with water to my eyes. All day everyday. For a year. But I had all kinds of conversations with myself. The best remembered one was, “you are my Angel now et as hard as it is to think happy thoughts, I believe that all of you trying to drown me on the daily will soon suffer.As you see I did nothing wrong,
And I hurt you never and yes,
you see this is the fine print… God forsakes his own, never.   So I write this to tell you that my friend Karma told me to tell you, your time is up.Arrows down.
Writing woes,   Teddi B Taylor Swift : bigger than the whole sky

now, I write singing her woes,

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
You were bigger than the whole sky
You were more than just a short time
And I’ve got a lot to pine about
I’ve got a lot to live without
I’m never gonna meet
What could’ve been, would’ve been
What should’ve been you
What could’ve been, would’ve been you.

 

#grief #loss #pain #depression