the last thing i would ever tell anyone

i don’t know if i was sexually abused as a child or not. i don’t remember a lot of my childhood. i know there are a lot of red flags…. my first therapist seemed to think i was “covertly sexually abused” as opposed to overtly. this kind of makes sense. i was exposed to things i should not have been exposed. i was not protected. i was not made to feel loved. i came to think of myself as only being valuable as a sexual being.…
right now i’m reading the body keeps the score by bessel van der kolk. that’s what brought on the memory this comic is based on. 
i would like to explore more.
i would like to learn to process the trauma that was my childhood & almost all of my “romantic” relationships…maybe then i could stop feeling so broken.…
i do know that making these quick & messy neurotic comics does help me with that process. so, thank you for bearing witness without judgement.
thank you for that.