Done.

It’s hard to watch the work ethic of some people fall apart as we face the closing of our warehouse. I only got six hours sleep last night, despite going to bed at a decent hour, and my heart rate rarely got below 90 today. And I keep facing less equilibrium. I can’t spell anymore. I can’t think.

And I have one more ten-hour shift tomorrow and a four-hour overtime shift on Saturday.

This post will be riddled with errors and I’m not going to tell you the details of how much yuckier my day went once I got home. But I will tell you I forgot to take my evening medication and I’m not going downstairs to get it.

I sent a message to my doctor yesterday asking if I could go through the medical nutrition program– and he referred me. I’ll be going Monday.

I really wanted Hungryroot’s pork snitzel(sp) for dinner but the teenager used up all the Ziploc bags and it’s a shake-and-bake type recipe and I need a bag.

And as soon as I write down my food intake for the day, I’m going to cry myself to sleep.

What I ate today:

4 a.m.: Supercoffee brewed with organic cacao and served with half and half. I took some to work but only drank about 16 ounces total and forgot it in the breakroom when I left for the day.5:15 a.m.: water and homemade cheesecake. 8:30 a.m.: about 24 ounces in on water intake for the day. Brekki overnight oats, which were sweet, syrupy and wet so I added plain Greek yogurt.11:30 a.m.: about 16 ounces more of water. One slice rye bread, creamy miso (about one teaspoon) and my mother-in-law’s meatloaf. Some Wallaby candies. But only about 1/2 a serving or so.1:30 p.m.: golden kiwi. By the end of the shift, I had another 8 ounces water.4 p.m.: about 12 ounces electrolyte water with a hint of cucumber and honey roasted pistachios.

This was supposed to be dinner, but I put it back in the fridge.