Mon. March 20, 2023: Intent for the Week — Choosing the Fragments

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Happy Equinox/Ostara!

Today the light and dark are in balance, and then it tips toward the light for the coming months. Days get longer.

The past few years, I feel like I lost a lot of myself, and that parts got fragmented and/or shattered.

My intent this week is to choose the shards I want, and to leave behind those I do not. I want to reclaim my self-esteem, sense of adventure, sense of being grounded in my work, optimism, and determination (among other things).

I want to leave behind much of the negatives of not just the years at the previous location, but negative patterns that I acquired beforehand, which may have served me early in my career, but no longer serve. Among those are demands for constant and unrealistic productivity, especially when it benefits only others; the projections others tried to force on me for their own convenience; the bewilderment at the hostility with which I was met at the previous location for my commitment to my work; the pain of constant self-defense to those who daily tried to tear me down to make themselves feel better; and the demand that I am the one who always has to comply/accommodate/defer to those who have not earned mutual physical and emotional space.

I’m aware these changes will take longer than a week, and are an ongoing process. But I want to use this day of balance as the moment where I step back into the parts of myself I like best, and choose to leave behind other parts.

What is your intent for the week?