Repeated life lessons

In 2022, I was reminded that people don’t think as I do. We are not all the same, even deep down. Some people will villainise you. Some people will look off in another direction and see something you don’t see, while saying you are wrong. Some people have stubborn minds. Some people are hurt so they make you hurt. Some people are just not ready to see how you do. Some people are just too self-serving. No matter how compassionate and fair you might be to them, they cannot reciprocate.

I have to accept that.

I have to accept apologies I didn’t get last year. I need to move on. Not forgive. Not forget. Move on.

And really, there’s always many sides to things, not just two. In reality, you are the villain as much as you are not. There are no objective views. There are no absolutes. And so I need to find peace in that, not frustration. Stop screaming for people to see reason. Stop screaming to be heard. Stop seeking validation from those who can’t see me.

I’m working on it. I am. I must. For it is a great irritation at the moment, consuming my thoughts and energy, trying to get people to act the way I want them to.

I am no puppeteer.

Let go, Siana. Let them be. And you just be. And hope that these moments don’t happen too frequently. As Adriene Mischler says, tell them “namaste my friend!” and walk away. Don’t give the wrong things more energy than they deserve.