Not My Usual Post

So, when I typically sit down to post anything on social media (minus my private Facebook page) I try to be mindful of what I post.

I am creating a brand. I am trying to crave a place for myself in the entertainment industry. So, when I post I try to make sure that I stick to that theme. I’m a nobody to basically everyone so I need to brand myself. I am an author. I hope to one day be a screenwriter and maybe even an actor. My social media presence needs to reflect that.

Yet, in the past week, I have been finding myself wanting to be more vulnerable.

I typically don’t ask people for help. I really don’t like to do it. Call it my pride or whatever, but it’s something that I work very hard to never have to do.

Well, today I am going against that mindset. I am asking for help.

I started driving Uber Eats full-time after leaving my job and after feeling like my soul was leaving my body from working retail (literally. I was not happy), I took on the concept of working for myself. Well, my means of making a decent income has been compromised. My car needs engine work and would you believe that I do not have any money saved up to take care of it? I mean, I would have if I hadn’t had a gun pointed at me and then my window shattered. That a story for another time. The point is that anything I did have saved up is gone and now I find myself in a bind. While my credit has been improving, it’s been slow and I do not qualify for any loans. I’ve tried repeatedly. I’ve tried manifesting and praying and even just thinking positively but now my anxiety is starting to rise.

It’s been two weeks and all I can think about is the fact that rent will be due soon as well as all of my other bills and I have no money and I can’t just go get in my car and make the money I need.

So, here is where I lower my pride and ask for help. I wish I didn’t have to and that I could go out and start my car and it will magically work (maybe I should try that).

I created a gofundme and I do know that these are tough times for everyone and that it’s the holidays, but anything that you can donate I will greatly appreciate. Seriously. If you can’t that is completely understandable, but if you can help in any way then I say, from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU<3

The link to donate is https://gofund.me/8e222598

Again, thank you for your help and just for reading this post to the end.