A Purpose is Defined by…
Wednesday 22nd of July 2020
I wanted to write this down so that I wouldn’t forget it, so I could return to it if need be. There’s also the idea of solidifying something through words, through the act of writing it down, making it clearer, less abstract.
Sometimes we need to be clear on the purpose of something in order to focus on it, to appreciate what we’re doing and get it done, to find the will and motivation.
I decided to ask my oracle cards what my purpose is for writing ‘What do the Nightbirds Sings?’, I’m still not sure if I’m keeping that title, what do you think?
Anyway, I feel like it’s coming across as though I can’t think for myself and that I’m asking you, and inanimate objects for advice, but it’s not that at all. Using oracle cards or tarot cards is a cheat sheet, yes, but, it’s accessing the subconscious without sitting with your own thoughts for hours on end before you get to something real and deep. It’s not picking a card and then reading the creators intent or interpretation, well it can be that too, but mostly it’s looking at a card and seeing for yourself what it means for you.
Try it, ask anything. See what gets triggered, what rises in you, what it makes you think about.
So, the answer comes from within, not without, it’s your answer, just with a little nudging.
So, this is what my answer was: Writing is my souls gift, it’s what I want to do. I’m writing this novel because I’m angry, and conflicted, and in pain, and so are so many other people out there. It says: this is what the world has been like for us, this is what we’ve moved through, let’s transmute our pasts and learn from them, see what we can become.
So often I feel depressed and frustrated, like there’s no point to what I’m attempting here, but maybe that’s just the writing process. Maybe it will all be worth it in the end. But then maybe that’s a lot of pressure to put on a book I haven’t even finished writing yet.
