#72: My Life is a Mess

So yeah, the title says it all.

Welcome to my monthly blog, folks. September's been a rather bad one for me. My weekly stressors have become daily, and my focus and motivation are slipping. I feel like I have permanent brain fog, but I couldn't even begin to tell you the WHY.

All I do know is that my life is becoming a mess. I feel like I have no control over anything and it's beyond frustrating. It's exhausting me. My personal life is exhausting me, and I can't even focus on my writing whatsoever. It's no longer an excuse, it's just FACT.

So while I wish I had better, more positive aspects from this month to focus on - like my art improvement, for a bit of an example - there is nothing good that came out of September. Nothing at all.

I would like to see this blog as a pure vent post, so if you've made it this far without tuning out or leaving to do something more productive, I guess I appreciate it. I know I need to take better care of myself, both mentally and physically. Oh, and emotionally too, of course. I just wish I had a better handle on things. I'm genuinely sorry that I made this entire blog about my personal issues, but... what else am I supposed to say? Am I supposed to lie and say that everything is fine, that my writing isn't suffering majorly??

I really am sorry I had to dump this publicly, but I hear it's supposed to be cathartic. And to be honest, I used to vent on social media all the time. Plus, no one really reads these blogs anyway, so why should I be worried...

Well. Here's hoping that October - my freaking birthday month - is better... see you then I guess. I hope.

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Rachel Joy