I Shouldn't Have Loved You

Talking to you was okay.. Meeting you was okay too, but I shouldn't have loved you! 
I liked talking to you about how my day was,It didn't take too long to make you my addiction.
Earlier it was okay,Cause I had to deal only with you! If I could talk to you for a littleThat was enough for me! 
With whom you are meeting, you want to be with... I didn't care at all, not even a bit! Earlier my life was completely mineI didn't care a much about things related to you.. Talking to you was nothing specialIt was the usual way as with my friends.. Even meeting you was like meeting a casual friend, nothing more than that, Then suddenly I don't know what happened. . You became necessary in my lifeWithout you I felt worried! 
If I don't get a chance to talk to you,I feel a void in my heart, Those casual conversations with you.. I am unaware of the reasons but, they feel special now! 
Now jealousy flows in..Whenever I see you getting close to others,Presently you are my first priority in life.. For reasons I cannot comprehend! 
Now I am eager to know, About minute details of you,your daily life.. I gaze at your pictures, even when I'm busy! 
These days my mind is filled with your thoughts, I have changed... I wasn't like this earlier! 
Your continuous chatter during our conversations.. Your voice that I used to hear so casually.. Isn't that casual anymore, It has became my addiction, I want to hear your voice more often! 
I feel different whenever I meet you now, It's really an inexplicable and strange feeling.. I am unable to concentrate on other aspects, Before loving you everything was right, Now everything is getting worse! I wasn't ever excited the way I am now... 
Now my life is in your control, And the strange thing is.. I can't even tell you this! 
Talking to you was okay.. Meeting you was okay too! but I shouldn't have loved youI Shouldn't have loved you!
© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY

Edit Courtesy:- Diya Mukherjee