My worthiness

It’s been a few days since I am feeling unworthy to dream being surrounded by the best of people. The most i want from them is them really liking me. Not feeling dissatisfied or disappointed in me.

At first I used to think that i needed to be an epitome of perfection for someone too be happy with me all the time.

But when I met people who like me despite how i think or who i am. Or rather like me for who i am. They made me feel like i am like anybody else and can succeed too in whatever field i choose.

People like them exist and i want to be surrounded by them. i believe and now know that i am worthy of such wholehearted love and adoration.

So, this clear realisation hit me that i attracted people who liked me but in reality it was not complete wholesome love. Now, that i know it, i am not gonna compromise on the people i want to be around. Only the best of best.

Just yesterday i got a better understanding of the person (the one) who they describe in my tarot readings.

They say he is stable, mature, wealthy. But the people i had crush on were nothing like that. So, yesterday my line of thoughts were like these – yeah it will be nice to have that person but he is so good to be true. What will he want from me. He is good at many things and he will be disappointed in me.

But i realised such a primp and proper person may like me for my shabbiness. He can be childish and goofy in my presence. That kind of break from his serious life will be so much precious for him. As for me he will be a person i can run to when i am in trouble. A person I can ask any help i want. A person on whose stability and reliability i can bask in. As for him it will be all simple issues to fix.

So, when i come across any half-hearted people i will remind myself to be the queen of swords tarot card. Hard to approach. Of course, it is not because of ego but because I love myself more and not interested in sharing my valuable time with them.

Thanks so much! Love you