Get comfortable with uncomfortable bipolar disorder thoughts!

OMG. My brain says the most ridiculous things- things I would NEVER say on my own. It creates relationships that aren't there- goes over conversations that never happened and then makes me feel like it's all true. It has taken me years to realize that I can deny these thoughts- yell at these thoughts and beg them to go away- sometimes this works, sometimes is doesn't.  It's very hard to live with a constant conversation in your head. 

 I've worked on this for 13 years, so I guess it's a never ending battle! It's defintely better. The most important thing is that I don't act out on these thoughts like I used to. This has saved my relationships- especially with the new people that come into my life. Watching my triggers diligently has made the biggest difference. I feel like a monk though.  These days I'm learning to just let these thoughts roam around in my head and laugh at them when I can.  Haha. My brain just said WHAT?  

Julie

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