The stars are aligning
Have you ever had that feeling that everything is coming together and you are right where you are meant to be at exactly the right time?
That is how I feel today.
In just a few short weeks I will be closing on a duplex, finishing my last day under a supervisor I’ve had for 7 years, saying goodbye to an industry I have worked in for 7 years and starting the career that I have been working towards for almost ten years. There are mixed feelings I have about how my life is about to change, but it is mostly anticipation for the unknown.
Someone is taking a chance on me and giving me an amazing opportunity. I do not want to fail them. And I do not want to fail myself. This new venture will be an incredible challenge for me both mentally and emotionally. Every time I think of it though, I get tears in my eyes because I have been looking for this for so long. I have been praying top find that one person that would bet on me.
If you have not experienced burnout before, I hope you never do. Emotional exhaustion, depersonalization, and a lack of personal accomplishment are the symptoms of burnout syndrome. Ironically, my dissertation for my PhD program was on burnout in teachers and how it can be affected by authentic leadership of the principal. When my dad’s health started to rapidly deteriorate while fighting cancer, I took a leave of absence from writing my dissertation. My dad died a month later.
My original plan was to resume, and complete, my dissertation after taking a quarter off. Thanks to COVID coming and shutting down all the schools, my project was no longer a valid study as it had been approved on certain factors, such as the principal/teacher face-to-face interaction. The biggest part of my study was that it was going to be looking at person-organization misfit. Though you may fit into the industry of teaching, for example, that doesn’t mean that you are the right fit for every position at every location.
When I started working in my current industry, my first organization was a great fit for me. I loved going to work. I loved the people, the leadership, the culture - all of it! The second, and final, organization I worked for was not a good fit. But when you need a job, you need to take that job. Beggars can’t be choosers.
For one of the few times in my life, I don’t feel like a beggar. I have worked hard for my life and, yes, I feel like I am ‘catching a break’. When I was going to school for my PhD, I took a bus to a train so that I could get to my full-time job without paying $20 a day on parking. I had doubled up classes so that I could finish the classwork as quick as I could. I would do my readings on the hour plus bus and train ride to and from work and I would be up until at least midnight doing homework. None of that mattered anymore when my dad went to hospice. I felt burnout on life and was complacent in my dead-end job.
It is a great feeling to find a career (something that you spend more time doing than almost anything else in your life) that will improve my emotional well being, make me care about what I am doing and make me feel accomplished in what I am doing. I can be proud of my results and proud of the company I am working with.
The end of April is my birthday, and my boyfriend has booked us a trip in Florida for 5 days! The day after I get home to Colorado, my company will be flying me out to San Diego for 3 days. It will be a whirlwind of excitement and planes but I am so excited. Just going to California will make me feel like a celebrity :)
As everything is coming together to quickly, I have decided to book my cover designer and editor so that I can get a pre-order in for book 3, Rise of the Ràej. I want to send my manuscript to my editor before I leave for Florida. May will be a month of completing edits and other finalizations but I am thinking of making the launch date the 1-year anniversary of the book 1 release date.
The point of this burnout blog started off by wanting to tell you how burnout has effected my writing. I wanted book 3 to be released by March, but I have been detesting the computer. After working my 9 hour shifts, staring at a computer screen and doing work that I stopped enjoying years ago, it became hard to make myself sit down and write.
But I have been RE-INVIGORATED! The joy of life has come back to me and the world is full of possibilities again! I may even go golfing soon :)
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