5 Things I’m Learning From

5 Things I’m Learning From 🐏

Dirty dishes don’t make me angry, I make me angry. It applies to everything that 'happens to me’. EVERYTHING. I had been unaware. I became aware of a backseat belief that says my anger is justified because it’s obvious that doing dishes is the right thing to do. So if I feel my anger is justified, why would I stop being angry? I also had a belief that the anger was biological and happened at lightning speed, therefore I had no control over it. Talk about deflecting responsibility! Since seeing the absurdity of not wanting to be angry but choosing to be angry, blowing a gasket has lessened.Listen to energy more than the words. I bring up a point to argue or an issue I am having and 🐏 often prompts me to 'have a look at it’. That is, my energy. Forget the words. No matter how logical or right I think I am, if there is negative energy behind my words, then I know that’s Ego speaking. And the major reason I interact with 🐏 is to learn how to become free of Ego. I see now that protesting for 'good' things like save the planet, go vegan, fight for freedom — have been backed with violent energy, even if it is subtle. It is manipulative, forceful, Hitleresque. “DO THIS, DON’T DO THAT, OR ELSE WE WILL… AND YOU ARE… 🤬” It doesn’t mean that I should or shouldn’t follow these initiatives, but if there is even a slither of violent energy in my actions, then conflict on the planet will ensue, no matter how much Kale I eat to save the animals. This one has taken alot of patience, open-mindedness, and consideration to unpack.Measurement keeps me on the hamster wheel. 🐏 often points out that I am measuring my spiritual progress. His demeanour nonchalant. I had always wondered why until I blew up at him the other day. Ego was not happy because it felt like an attack. I have been experiencing more peace and glimpses of the divine, and when I share my progress report, it feels like I get shot down, and that he is denying the reality that I’VE BEEN FEELING MORE PEACEFUL, DAMN IT! 🤷 I believe he is helping me understand that measuring where I was versus where I am now is a cunning tactic of the Ego to keep me chasing a mirage. “I was there but now I am not anymore, therefore I feel dissatisfied.”Be weary of helping others who don’t ask for it. Often I think I am helping when really I am dictating. Nobody likes being dictated to. The wifey trying to mould the frustrated hubby into her ideal is the epitome of examples. You should get this job, wear that shirt, clean this bench, watch this movie, eat this brocolli. Even if a broccoli would make hubby healthier, if he isn’t asking for health advice, then why try to force him to be any other way than he is? Is that love? It may not be seen as forcing, but if you have a look at the energy behind the words or thoughts in your mind, you’ll likely feel the energy of manipulation if you are honest with yourself. So as long as I manipulate, I can’t be whole. Focusing on my own brocolli with zero motive of influencing the other to eat brocolli, is ironically, the most pure way to influence the other to eat brocolli.What is my motive? Whether it is posting an Instagram or talking with a friend, 🐏 often asks me this. After much examination, I noticed many of my every day habits were littered with Ego-upholderingness. In conversations with a friend it’s “I am this and I can help you because I am awesome". And sharing life quotes on Instagram presents itself as humble service, but is often to win the admiration of nodding heads, or to show off my awesome wisdom.[image error]