Sometimes Discernment Sucks

 I'll keep this short, it is really just a message for one person. I don't know any other legitimate way to reach you other than this way; you know why.  I wanted you to know that I have been burning with a question as to why you stopped posting and what would make you stop so abruptly.  The obvious answer would be that you were physically unable to do so. You were taken away, or you were injured and couldn't reach the phone to post. That reasoning didn't set well, and I began to pray about it. I did a little recon and know now that I was right, you are actually physically capable and able to post, you just choose not to. That's fine, and I get it. It's really no one's business what's happening to you, but then again, it is.  Thousands of people follow you and thousands of people may wonder, but only a few of us will dare enough to care enough. That's a hard reality but it's a truth.  I am one of the few. I really do care. 

    I began praying and God has (through the recon and through simple deduction of reason) shown me what has probably taken place; if not the details, I at least know the culprit. I have to say, I can show you in my journal from this time last year, that I never trusted the man. I wrote it down. I do not trust M.C. I just do not. He's not (and never was) a man to be trusted. He's a poser, a pretender, a user, and in my opinion, he's not only self loving, he's deceptive as well.  To see that you no longer follow him spoke volumes. VOLUMES. I still follow him to see what he may do -- keep your enemies close they say. He is not my enemy per se, I just never liked him. Now I have another reason not to.  I will pray for him. I will of course pray for the entire situation, but Jesus understands I place you first in those prayers for wisdom, protection, and recovery of spirit.  I'm so sorry this has happened to you. 

    People will say so many things to you in order to make you "feel better" or "show you the light" and all the other dumb cliches out there, but you know what, I'm just sorry that you had to see it, had to deal with it, and that you were hurt. Your faith is strong even if you don't see it at this moment, it is. The words of the songs still mean something; sing them. Happiness is fleeting, but joy is chosen. I pray you find joy. I pray you find a means of peace soon and a path to His will.  It won't be easy it never is, but you are absolutely not alone. Please don't ever think you are. You are not. I can't reach out to you, but you are always welcome to reach out to me. You have my email. You have my IG. Know (KNOW) that you are loved and prayed over.  Something beautiful will come of this. Remember, (remember) "because He lives" you can face tomorrow. 

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