meditation: GRATITUDE and DESPERATION:

Today, I will be grateful that
I am still DESPERATE not to
feel the way I used to feel...


and today, I will be grateful that I get not to live
the way I used to live and do

the things I used to do.

And even though things have changed,
it can be easy to forget where you come from

because you’re not passed out
on the floor anymore
or sleeping in a bathtub

or caught up in a web of someone else’s
bad energy that they never really invited you into

anyway.

And it’s so easy to forget that
now is a new day
when you get caught up in the problems
that come along with new privileges.

But wherever you go,
there you'll still be

so don't forget to remember
to remember to forget

who it seemed like you once

thought

you WERE

and who you think now

you will be.