Unplugged

I went for a walk in the evening after logging out for the week. I made a habit of walking or going for a run to calm my inner self. With the pandemic, there were restrictions for everyone. Everything is slowly returning to normal. People are heading back to gyms and parks. During my work hours, I don’t listen to music to concentrate better. So, I walk around listening to music. Today, the playlist reminded me that I am no longer a college girl. Back in 2011, all songs connected to a person. When I lost connection with that person, those songs did hurt. Sometimes, Facebook’s memory post brings back the nightmare in my life. I hated some of my favorite songs, as they reminded me of that person. It was an absurd feeling that made me look vulnerable. I had stopped listening to my favorite tracks to avoid a nervous breakdown for almost two years.
I can say in 2021, I have loosened a bit and made myself to music. When I am lazy, I plug in to watch a random video on YouTube and start working. I have started giving myself space to breathe. There was a time in life I never cared about myself. Now, when everyone has been vocal about self-love, I feel I tormented myself for the sake of a person who never cared for me.
I believe everyone must put themselves first. You could also set priority for family, friends, or close ones. Never connect temporary people with your habits. I remember I stopped eating my favorite food as it reminded me of the time; we spent as a couple. Never harm yourself for somebody else. Take charge of your life and love yourself. None would understand your feelings better, so trust yourself with them.