I need a break…

It’s so freaking rare to find a soul that understands you completely. A soul that knows you and doesn’t judge you. A soul that accepts you for who you truly are and never makes you feel as if you’ve done something wrong.

In all honesty, it feels like a moonshot. Finding a soul like this, I mean. And I was never quite known for my luck. I thought I had found that soul. I was wrong.

Unfortunately though, this has made me lose part of who I am, too. I don’t sleep well, I don’t really take care of myself, I simply get lost into work, just so I’m too tired afterwards to think. I go for long walks and run, just so I can exhaust myself and the physical pain is the only thing I can think of. I don’t read as much as I used to, because I compare everything to what I’m experiencing right now, and that’s the last thing I wanna do. I don’t write as much as I used to, because I think too much of everything I’m experiencing and feeling right now, and that’s definitely the last thing I wanna do.

So, long story short, I’m in denial and that’s probably the worst turn my depression has taken in quite some time. Well, maybe not the worst, because I realise that I need to take care of myself and focus on what I want to do from now on in my life.

I told you I was thinking of taking a break from blogging for the month of April, to focus on my WIPs, but also to reevaluate my priorities and find myself again. I know I’m taking the right decision, mostly because I’ve read previous posts and this isn’t who I am, at least in terms of writing, AT ALL.

So, I honestly hope that you respect this decision and that you’ll be back when I decide to return.

I know I’ve said this probably a million times, but I honestly thank you for being here once again. It truly means the world to me and I want you to know that I most certainly don’t take your presence here for granted.

Till next time… Toodles!