I Can’t Keep

I can’t keep seeking sanctum in stories that don’t exist.
I can’t keep trying to hold a hand when it’s curled in a first.
I can’t keep ignoring instincts to fire bolts of blame.
I can’t keep following the rules when I don’t know the game.

I can’t keep listening to the voices screeching in my head.
I can’t keep seeding thoughts and deeds that drive me back to bed.
I can’t keep justifying words that wound long after breath.
I can’t keep ignoring the urges whispering of death.

But if I keep hol...