A Little Rant… Or Story Time

Have you ever felt as if you were standing in the middle of a crossroad? That you didn’t know which way to go and you just stood there, almost petrified, with thoughts consuming your head?

I know I do feel like that right now. Because this has been the case for the past five days. Well, in all honesty, this has been the case since August, but apparently I was not bold enough to admit it, not even to myself. The thing though is that I’ve grown up since I first had to face some quite tough situations and take some serious life decisions. I’m more mature now. I know what I want. I know who I want.

I know that I don’t want things in half measures. Or, as Jenny Han wrote in P.S.: I Still Love You, “I know now that I don’t want to love or be loved in half measures. I want it all, and to have it all, you have to risk it all.”.

I don’t know what the future holds. But I do know for a fact that I don’t want to live with “what ifs” and leave opportunities go away, simply because I remained in a familiar situation, that apparently has come to an end. I don’t want to look back and regret for all the things I wasn’t brave enough to chase, simply because I didn’t pluck up the courage to do so.

My uncle always told me that every new day is just like a premiere. You don’t know how things are going to be, yet you feel that excitement every single day. You hope. I do see that clearly now. Nobody has a happy life. Life consists of happy moments. But in order to have these happy moments, we just need to be brave enough to chase them. To fight for what we truly want to have in our life.

As another famous writer once wrote, what never happened is what we didn’t desire enough.

Just a piece of advice to everyone who’s going to read this…

You tell people how you feel when you feel it. Don’t bottle up your emotions. Take chances. Take risks. Be bold. Live life to the fullest, for only this way you’ll know that, at least, you tried.

Yes, I do believe in destiny, karma and all that jazz. But I also believe that our luck is in our own hands, too.

It seems stupid to me to not chase something when you know that you’re not the only one who truly wants it to happen. It seems stupid to me to take people out of your life when it’s crystal clear to you that they make you happy, and you make them happy, too.

So why put yourself in this hopeless inferno? And again, as Jenny Han wrote, “I suppose you can’t hold on to old things just for the sake of holding on.”.

It’s perfectly clear to me now. I hope it is to you, too.

Thank you all for coming back once again. This wasn’t one of my usual posts, but I do appreciate that you keep stopping by. I most certainly don’t take your presence here for granted. It is because of you that I keep writing here. And, truth be told, it makes me feel… lighter every single time I write. It helps me endure the hard days.

I hope you find something, and someone, who helps you endure your hard days, too.

Till next time… Toodles!