dipseysparkleflower:actualaster:you know what the w o r s t thing about adhd is? (at least i...

dipseysparkleflower:

actualaster:

you know what the w o r s t thing about adhd is? (at least i think this one is the adhd, could be one of the 429432 other things i have)

time is meaningless.

which means if i have one (1) thing that i need to do, my brain has to block the entire day out for it.

which means that even if it’s technically a “day off” if i have one (1) important obligation–even if it’s only gonna take like 2 hours out of hte day–my brain doesn’t count it as a “day off” so i don’t actually get to use it to decompress from everything else

which is how i end up going weeks or months without having a “day off” that my brain will register as such so my stress levels just keep compounding, and my energy levels keep plummeting, and it’s hell on earth is what it is

You…put into words…the feeling I feel…i can’t express…

If you combine this with a lifetime of being undervalued and invalidated and feel a constant need to prove your worth through productivity, I can say with a WEALTH of sorry experience that this exacerbates the first thing intensely. Time off = time to do more stuff to prove that you/your life has any worth at all.