BIG PROBLEMS

We smile at each other.  I ask him if it’s usual to be sad, as we are.  He says it’s because we’ve made love in the daytime, with the heat at its height.  He says it’s always terrible after.  He smiles. --Marguerite Duras, THE LOVER 
Paloma must not have had time to go to Montpellier for the fancy looking postcards.  She sent the simple ‘freebie one’ that she provides the guests that stay at her Residence Club.  I still liked it just the same.  It takes me to the South of France.  It's wonderful how one image can take one away.  It works. And it's a good way to remove any BIG PROBLEMS if even for a split-second.  Le 16/08/94 
Dear Michael, 
Excuse me for taking so long to answer you---but I have BIG PROBLEMS with my job, so I am looking for another one—and for another apartment with all the work I still have that keeps me really busy—so I just wanted to let you know that I miss you. 
Love, Paloma I suppose we all have BIG PROBLEMS.  They seem big but as time goes by, they look like they were actually smaller problems.   We all need the patience to get through things.  It’s a part of life. Barbara Reynolds also wrote me this week:  19 Aug 1994 
Dear Mike, 
Hey—How are you?  I haven’t written for a while so here I am again.  Friday night—after acupuncture and a few weeks of work and overtime for some BIG PROBLEMS with phone calls for a few nights.  TGIF-Thank God It’s Friday.   
I saw CLEAR AND PRESENT DANGER, the movie, this week.  It’s very good.  And I saw FORREST GUMP sever weeks ago.  You are right—a good one for sure.  Fun, relaxing and ‘so real’.  
So, I’ve got my ticket to fly to Richmond, VA on September 3rd and return from Nashville on Sept. 14th.  I will travel with my friend Spring and her kids (age 12 and 5 year).  They think of me as a kid—such a compliment—and I’m looking forward to this journey.  My first real trip since Hawaii and my appendix removal so... I am still looking at places.  I drove by one tonight that my realtor told me about, so maybe I will look at it with him this week.  This is a fun card.  I thought you might enjoy it. 
Last weekend I had a visit with my British cousin, Rosemary.  She had just been in Australia for a month, so she stopped her for a few days.   It was good to see her. Till Later, Love, Barbara 
It seems we all have little problems that we think are BIG PROBLEMS.   I decided to send Paloma a cool postcard of Polo Grounds scene by William Feldman:  8-21-94 
Dear Paloma, 
I received your postcard.  I hope things are going will with your job.  I know you’ve been under some pressure with that.  Any luck on something new?  
My mom is coming next Saturday 8-27 and then I’m surprising here and taking her to New York on September 2nd through September 7th for her BIRTHDAY. I might be going to Hong Kong in November—it's not definite yet—still trying to work out a deal with frequent flyer miles.   I am going to an AIDS FUNDRAISER dinner party at the Playboy Mansion on the 17th of September.  That should be FUN!  

Go see the movies FORREST GUMP and TRUE LIES when they are released in France.  I saw BELL EPOQUE, a Spanish film the other day.   It was a nice escape to Spain. Later, Love You, Michael  
“For you and for me the highest moment, the keenest joy, is not when our minds dominate but when we lose our minds, and you and I both lose it in the same way, through LOVE.” -as written by June to Henry in the book by Anais Nin, HENRY AND JUNE