Building Confidence

"Why ruin it all over a moment of tension?"

-2011 Italian film,
APARTMENT IN ATHENS

Twenty-five years ago today:

January 15, 1987
Thursday

Yesterday (January 14th), I got my chance to talk to Nikki Bovee, my second line manager. We discussed Eileen, my gal. We also spoke of my getting to Yellow Page Sales eventually.

During lunch time (yesterday) I went to MARY JANE's Card Shop and I bought a few cards. I bought three specifically for Eileen but I got some good generic ones for others. I found a Diana Ross postcard for Bob Guild that I know he'll love.

I made it to my gym last night. I saw Dave and Mark.
Both Dave and Mark made a short comment like, "It's about time!"
I defended myself by saying, "Well, I had a relapse of my cold."
"Yeah sure," Mark bounced back.

I came home and watched DYNASTY. While watching I wrote out cards to Nikki Bovee, Eileen Grabinsky and Bob Guild.
While watching DYNASTY Bob telephoned. We had some good conversation with regard to building confidence and feeling good 'even when not having a relationship'.

PHOTO: February 1987, 'me' and Eileen I telephoned Eileen right before I went to bed. We talked about marriage. It was more like talk about 'her' marriage (not ours…she referenced it with whoever and whenever). Eileen does foresee her marriage by age twenty-four though. I like her energy. I am finding myself in deep consideration of her as my marriage partner. Time will tell. I liked when Eileen said, "I'll HALT everything for you on Sunday."
"Okay then I'll pick you up and bring you here to show you around Alameda, my hometown."
The 15th of January:
Today is the J. Gaulding meeting. He is the President of Pac Bell Directory. I feel like 'so what'…he's just another person. He 'shits' in a toilet just like the rest of us.

I think I put Gaulding in a 'think on it position'.
I actually asked him a couple of double-in-one questions like, "What do you think of the Talking Yellow Pages and what are we doing to become internationally known via new products and services?"
I also asked him, "What do you know of the restructuring of the sales force and how do the NEW Key Account Sales Reps fit in to the picture?"
It was a good meeting.

Nikki Bovee said to me later, "You had some very good questions. Thank you so much. It's really exciting to be here in Directory!"
I answered with a smile, "I agree."

I had a fair work day. It just sort of moved along quickly. I lunched alone over at PASTELS on Mission.

When I finally got home due to the traffic trauma I chose to lie down for a while.

I telephoned Sherri about going out for Chinese food. We ate at Lung Kong and it was good. Ashley 'acted up' a little but she was cool overall.

I didn't go to the gym because I felt my cold recurring, so I decided to stay home.

I have this idea to work on a project all on my own and submit it to Gaulding, the President of Pac Bell Directory. I will title my project 'Forecasting the Future for Pac Bell Directory'. I need inspirational support. I ought to work on it and 'show my stuff'!

I called Eileen. We talked about driving down to Newport Beach on Valentine's Weekend. I wonder if that will actually happen.

Bob called and we are 'ON' for a dinner this coming Saturday night.

I wrote to Greg Jonsson in Chicago. I decided to reply back to the letter I received from him today.

"For once in your life…just think about yourself."
-HIS SECRET LIFE,
2001 Italian film