Poets on Couches: Maya C. Popa

In our new series of videograms, poets read and discuss the poems getting them through these strange times—broadcasting straight from their couches to yours. These readings bring intimacy into our spaces of isolation, both through the affinity of poetry and through the warmth of being able to speak to each other across the distances.

“Monet Refuses the Operation”

by Lisel Mueller

Issue no. 84 (Summer 1982)

Doctor, you say there are no haloes

around the streetlights in Paris

and what I see is an aberration

caused by old age, an affliction.

I tell you it has taken me all my life

to arrive at the vision of gas lamps as angels,

to soften and blur and finally banish

the edges you regret I don’t see,

to learn that the line I called the horizon

does not exist and sky and water,

so long apart, are the same state of being.

Fifty-four years before I could see

Rouen cathedral is built

of parallel shafts of sun,

and now you want to restore

my youthful errors: fixed

notions of top and bottom,

the illusion of three-dimensional space,

wisteria separate

from the bridge it covers.

What can I say to convince you

the Houses of Parliament dissolve

night after night to become

the fluid dream of the Thames?

I will not return to a universe

of objects that don’t know each other,

as if islands were not the lost children

of one great continent. The world

is flux, and light becomes what it touches,

becomes water, lilies on water,

above and below water,

becomes lilac and mauve and yellow

and white and cerulean lamps,

small fists passing sunlight

so quickly to one another

that I despair, my brush not being

long, streaming hair. To paint

the speed of light! Doctor,

our weighted shapes, these verticals,

burn to mix with air

and change our clothes, skin, bones

to gases. If only you could see

how heaven pulls earth into its arms

and how infinitely the heart expands

to claim the world, blue vapor without end.

 

Maya C. Popa is the poetry reviews editor of Publishers Weekly and the author of American Faith.