Day 5: Now & Before

There’s a lot I don’t like about “now.” My university announced a hiring freeze, which affects whether I’ll be rehired come August. Matt’s moved his law practice online, which disrupts current cash flow. The boys seem healthy, but are they? Our parents are at the cusp of where COVID effects spike.





There’s a lot I didn’t like about “before.” February was not a good month, and the glut of responsibilities wasn’t a one-off, but a pattern of mine that circuits a few times a year. See, I think I have things handled, but really, the to-dos are just accruing and then quarterly, they come calling. I keep my mouth shut, I keep my head down, and I set the alarm earlier to get the work done. I tell myself that I did this, so I’ll be the one to take the hit.





That’s a truth for a hermit. I am a wife. I am a mom. I am a writer and a teacher. I am daughter, a sister, and a friend. I am designed to be useful to more than my work, and I am designed for more than work. When I give myself over to work alone, everything takes a hit.





I’m not here to spin the stress of “now,” but I do see how it has paused the pressure of “before.” Now, I see an opportunity for honesty and change.





Enter the Unhurrying with a Rule of Life series from Bridgetown Church. I’d listened to the podcast a few months back, a part-desperate maneuver to add a spiritual veneer to my 3AM dish duty (Seriously. Beth.) It makes a case – we’re more busy than bad – and it drops a rope to guide a busy girl out.





I’m taking in the series again, at a less frenetic pace and a more palatable time of day. Anyone else want to join? I’m not talking anything formal, but more of a “if I know you’re listening to this then when I text, email, or see you from safe distance of 6+ feet, I’ll talk with you about this instead of the weather and toilet paper.”





If you’re interested, leave a comment or contact me, and we’ll get something (chill) going.

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Published on March 19, 2020 03:12
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