The Winds of Change

In the last two weeks my life has been changing. I can’t go into a lot of details but trust me when I say my life is completely changing from what I have known in the last several years. I am going to learn to live my life in a completely new way. Eventually, I will be able to share what is happening but for now I will have to be cryptic. In my opinion, all of these changes are good. They are leading me into the direction my life is meant to go. I have spent a lot of time thinking about what I want out of my life. I have cried a lot and been pretty pissed off. For the record the anger only served me a little while, the rest of the time it just wore me down. I have looked at the situation from all sides and I know what needs to be done.

The thing is these changes are ones that I did not see coming. A few of them I did. I knew they were on the horizon because of where I am in my life. The unexpected changes I didn’t foresee are ones that scare me the most, they are ones I felt I would never get to experience. They are changes that in some ways I never felt I was good enough to have. For that reason it terrifies me. The thing with change is it’s always scary because we are learning to leave the past behind and are having to learn to embrace a different life. A good friend of mine recently said to me most people fight change because it is easier to stay in the hell we know than dive into a new way of living. When he said this to me it made me think about what I have been doing, which has become a vicious cycle. It made me think about why we fight so hard against change.

Change is a natural part of life. We have to change throughout our lives because of a couple different reasons. The first reason is if we never allow change in our lives that means we are not growing. Change means we are growing and learning from our mistakes. To refuse change means we are doing the same thing, getting the same results. That is the exact definition of insanity. It gets you nowhere but keeps you in your own misery. Who wants to live that way? In my opinion, life is too short to be unhappy.

The other reason we do not accept change easily is we fear the unknown or maybe that’s just me. I know for me I always worry if I am making the right choice. See my decisions do not just affect me, they affect my kids as well. So if I make the wrong decision it’s not just my life I alter but theirs too. It terrifies me to the point that I cannot move, I stand still instead of embracing the changes or I did. The current changes in my life I have fully embraced. In fact I have run with them because I am tired of being in a bad place. I am tired of the difficulties and the pain it was causing me. I hit my limit and now I am making the necessary changes I need to make for me. With the new changes in my life, I am excited and nervous all at the same time. The thing is I know I am making the right choices. I know because I can feel it in my soul. I can feel the lightness in my body that my choices have created. My life and my children’s lives are going to improve with these changes.

Here’s the thing, the scariest changes are usually the ones you need the most. They are the ones that are going to change your life for the better. They are the ones you may have wished for but never thought you would get. Embrace change when you can. Do not stand still or fight it because you may end up missing out on a great opportunity. Great opportunities only come around once in a great while. To ignore them is foolishness. When life is pushing you towards change, follow it, you might just be pleasantly surprised with what you get from it. Until next time!