Sometimes life get's in the way
This week has been a very long and unproductive week or at least that’s how it feels. It has been one of those weeks, where I have felt like I have accomplished nothing. This was the first week of book five’s edit. I was excited to get this edit started because this book is written completely different than the rest of the series. It is also the start of the climax of the series. Exciting things are happening and I have been very unsure of this book since I started it. There are areas of the book that I love but there are also areas that I know need a lot of work. I am excited to start diving into the story. There is also the fact that I am itching to start drafting book six.
When Monday began I was ready to get started or at least I thought I was. I woke up an hour late, thenI had to deal with the fact that my son had a tooth ache and was trying to figure out if we had dental insurance like we should have had. To add to the chaos of my Monday morning, my daughter lost her glasses. I had no choice but to call into work and deal with the issues at hand. I spent almost three hours looking for my daughter’s glasses. The first hour of the search was spent looking for her old glasses so she would at least be able to see. The next two hours were spent tearing apart her room. I gave up at that point and made her an eye appointment. I found a dentist office that claimed to work with patients to arrange payments no matter if you had insurance or not, while I waited to find out what was going on with our insurance. I requested an appointment for my son online. An hour later, I got a call from the dental office. The woman I spoke with was rude and informed me they were not set up to work on kids and that the appointment would cost $146.00, which I didn’t have. I cancelled the appointment and treated his pain with tylenol and a warm salt water rinse. By ten o’clock, I was done for the day. I didn’t want to play anymore. I still had not gotten anything done on the computer. I was frustrated with life and wanted to go to bed to start again. I spent an hour with my friend Val in her home office BSing. Val works longer hours than I do and as of late she and I have been working nonstop to get shit done. She makes custom T-shirts and is the woman who makes my shirts for The Hellborn Series. She is also one of my best friends and is like family to me. When I need to vent she is there for me. On Monday, when I needed to laugh she helped me out. I am so grateful to have her in my life.
By eleven we had the answers to the dental insurance question but I had to push it to the back burner. I had to take my daughter to the eye doctor to get new glasses. She had the exam and by noon her glasses were ordered. A quick lunch and a call to the insurance company was next. I sat on hold for a while before I was told that I needed to call another number to get cards. I sat on hold for twenty minutes before I gave up on talking to anyone. I spent my afternoon at the dojo taking some of my aggression from the day out on a few bags. I tried and tried to get on the computer and every time I came into contact with my computer another thing cropped up. By six that night I gave up. I was tired and beat up. I hated taking the day off. I could feel Savannah as she seethed in my head at the lack of productivity of the day.
The rest of the week passed by slowly. I had issues getting up on time and I worked slowly to get the first three chapters done. Every time I tried to move faster, my brain shut down. I hated it and grumbled about it all week. By Friday, I was over the week and wanted to cry. I felt like I was starting to fail Savannah. I have accepted I won’t be able to get more than a chapter done on most days. The first chapter is short. I should have been able to get two chapters done on Tuesday, but I didn’t. The third chapter is a heavier chapter but I only got the first five pages done of that chapter on Thursday. What the hell was wrong with me? First I fail to get anything accomplished on Monday and the rest of the week I only got three chapters done. What was going on? Truthfully, I have no answer to why this week was such a struggle other than to say that sometimes life says it has to be. The upside to this week was I did meet a new person in my head. He and his brothers will be another series that I will be starting in the next six months. I met him while I was tutoring my friend Val’s daughter. We have been working on fiction writing. She is in fourth grade and they are learning about different forms of writing. I have been trying to teach her how to be descriptive. We’re getting there but we are still having some issues. I had the same problem when I started writing so I understand why she is struggling. The best way to learn is to write. So I had her doing a free write. I read the prompt and loved it. As soon as I read it to her my new friend popped up. At the time I was bouncing between three kids doing homework so I wrote the first two pages of the new series in between helping all three of the kids. He only gave me a taste of his story but it gave me a thrill to see what he has in store for me.
With this week finally behind me, I started thinking about what went wrong and why. I’m starting to think that the reason the week was tough was that my new friend was blocking Savannah’s path to me. I have had this sense for about two weeks that there was something happening in my head but I didn’t know what it was. I just knew something was brewing. I was so focused on Savannah and everyone else I wasn’t allowing anything else to come through. Monday forced Savannah and I to take a break which allowed my new friend to come through and say “Hey, I have a story for you to dictate. Pay attention!” Maybe that was what I needed without even realizing it? As tough as this week has been, I am starting to think that Monday was what it was meant to be. I got to enjoy an hour with my friend and just laugh. She and I got to talk about my branding and start working on it which we have been trying to accomplish for the last few weeks. We got to do something that wasn’t just working. The break also meant I met someone new and I get to start a new series soon. That is exciting. Maybe life just gave me the break I wasn’t willing to give myself.
If you have a week where you just can’t get done the amount of work you wish you could. Or you have a day now and again that just doesn’t play out the way you want it to, let it go. Start anew and don’t sweat the small stuff. Maybe it was just a week that you only get half of what you wanted accomplish. That’s okay because you still got something accomplished. If you feel there is something creative trying to get your attention, pay attention to it. Don’t ignore it, see what it is. Explore what is trying to get your attention. You can take an hour of your time to see what is happening. Stay positive about what you are doing. Until next time!
When Monday began I was ready to get started or at least I thought I was. I woke up an hour late, thenI had to deal with the fact that my son had a tooth ache and was trying to figure out if we had dental insurance like we should have had. To add to the chaos of my Monday morning, my daughter lost her glasses. I had no choice but to call into work and deal with the issues at hand. I spent almost three hours looking for my daughter’s glasses. The first hour of the search was spent looking for her old glasses so she would at least be able to see. The next two hours were spent tearing apart her room. I gave up at that point and made her an eye appointment. I found a dentist office that claimed to work with patients to arrange payments no matter if you had insurance or not, while I waited to find out what was going on with our insurance. I requested an appointment for my son online. An hour later, I got a call from the dental office. The woman I spoke with was rude and informed me they were not set up to work on kids and that the appointment would cost $146.00, which I didn’t have. I cancelled the appointment and treated his pain with tylenol and a warm salt water rinse. By ten o’clock, I was done for the day. I didn’t want to play anymore. I still had not gotten anything done on the computer. I was frustrated with life and wanted to go to bed to start again. I spent an hour with my friend Val in her home office BSing. Val works longer hours than I do and as of late she and I have been working nonstop to get shit done. She makes custom T-shirts and is the woman who makes my shirts for The Hellborn Series. She is also one of my best friends and is like family to me. When I need to vent she is there for me. On Monday, when I needed to laugh she helped me out. I am so grateful to have her in my life.
By eleven we had the answers to the dental insurance question but I had to push it to the back burner. I had to take my daughter to the eye doctor to get new glasses. She had the exam and by noon her glasses were ordered. A quick lunch and a call to the insurance company was next. I sat on hold for a while before I was told that I needed to call another number to get cards. I sat on hold for twenty minutes before I gave up on talking to anyone. I spent my afternoon at the dojo taking some of my aggression from the day out on a few bags. I tried and tried to get on the computer and every time I came into contact with my computer another thing cropped up. By six that night I gave up. I was tired and beat up. I hated taking the day off. I could feel Savannah as she seethed in my head at the lack of productivity of the day.
The rest of the week passed by slowly. I had issues getting up on time and I worked slowly to get the first three chapters done. Every time I tried to move faster, my brain shut down. I hated it and grumbled about it all week. By Friday, I was over the week and wanted to cry. I felt like I was starting to fail Savannah. I have accepted I won’t be able to get more than a chapter done on most days. The first chapter is short. I should have been able to get two chapters done on Tuesday, but I didn’t. The third chapter is a heavier chapter but I only got the first five pages done of that chapter on Thursday. What the hell was wrong with me? First I fail to get anything accomplished on Monday and the rest of the week I only got three chapters done. What was going on? Truthfully, I have no answer to why this week was such a struggle other than to say that sometimes life says it has to be. The upside to this week was I did meet a new person in my head. He and his brothers will be another series that I will be starting in the next six months. I met him while I was tutoring my friend Val’s daughter. We have been working on fiction writing. She is in fourth grade and they are learning about different forms of writing. I have been trying to teach her how to be descriptive. We’re getting there but we are still having some issues. I had the same problem when I started writing so I understand why she is struggling. The best way to learn is to write. So I had her doing a free write. I read the prompt and loved it. As soon as I read it to her my new friend popped up. At the time I was bouncing between three kids doing homework so I wrote the first two pages of the new series in between helping all three of the kids. He only gave me a taste of his story but it gave me a thrill to see what he has in store for me.
With this week finally behind me, I started thinking about what went wrong and why. I’m starting to think that the reason the week was tough was that my new friend was blocking Savannah’s path to me. I have had this sense for about two weeks that there was something happening in my head but I didn’t know what it was. I just knew something was brewing. I was so focused on Savannah and everyone else I wasn’t allowing anything else to come through. Monday forced Savannah and I to take a break which allowed my new friend to come through and say “Hey, I have a story for you to dictate. Pay attention!” Maybe that was what I needed without even realizing it? As tough as this week has been, I am starting to think that Monday was what it was meant to be. I got to enjoy an hour with my friend and just laugh. She and I got to talk about my branding and start working on it which we have been trying to accomplish for the last few weeks. We got to do something that wasn’t just working. The break also meant I met someone new and I get to start a new series soon. That is exciting. Maybe life just gave me the break I wasn’t willing to give myself.
If you have a week where you just can’t get done the amount of work you wish you could. Or you have a day now and again that just doesn’t play out the way you want it to, let it go. Start anew and don’t sweat the small stuff. Maybe it was just a week that you only get half of what you wanted accomplish. That’s okay because you still got something accomplished. If you feel there is something creative trying to get your attention, pay attention to it. Don’t ignore it, see what it is. Explore what is trying to get your attention. You can take an hour of your time to see what is happening. Stay positive about what you are doing. Until next time!
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