“Two weeks after the divorce I met another guy on Instagram. We...

“Two weeks after the divorce I met another guy on Instagram.  We talked for hours on our first date.  And it felt so good after this long, unhappy relationship.  I finally had that feeling again.  I hadn’t felt it in years.  And it was so beautiful.  He wrote so much to me.  Oh my goodness, so many words.  He was saying I was great.  And I was the perfect woman.  And he was so thankful he found me.  And he wanted me to meet his family.  It was his idea to get tattoos together.  It was his idea to move in together.  But as soon as we did, he changed.  He became less affectionate.  So I suggested we slow down a little.  I suggested we live apart.  And that’s when he cut off all contact.  So in the past month, I’ve lost two houses and two men.  I’m so mad at myself.  I feel so stupid.  I couldn’t even be alone for two weeks.  I’ve never been alone.  I had my first boyfriend when I was thirteen.  I dated so many guys in school.  I got married when I was 21.  For my entire life, there’s always been someone there.  I don’t even know what life looks like when you’re alone.  It’s my biggest fear.  I’m not sure I can handle it.”
(Berlin, Germany)