How Can You Do It?

Good morning!

It’s easy to start off the day with a smile, even if you have to force it. That’s kind of what I do because who wants to see a grumpy old lady? Not that I’m grumpy or an old lady, it just appears that way when you’re not smiling. Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked!

It’s a conscious decision for me to start my day thinking highly and positively of the day before it begins. I have to, or else my mind will take a rather sharp turn into thoughts that shouldn’t be there. It’s a trick really. I trick my brain. I have to because my mind is constantly thinking, overthinking, and over the overthinking. I have to remind myself to breathe, sink into my body, and be in the moment.

I try to think too far ahead and it really messes me up. Especially in regards to my writing, namely my book.

“The Sorceress” is still coming along rather smoothly because I am taking my time. I have a deadline that I’ve set for myself, but I still like to think that I’m just taking it easy. And I am, for the most part.

But then my mind goes to the places that most writers’ minds head to: doubt.

I begin to doubt my ability, doubt that I will finish this book and that then, in turn, makes me doubt myself in other ways. It’s a poison that permeates through one side of the brain to the next until all is covered by a blanket of “you cannot do this”.

But I inject the serum.

Slowly. Little by little.

I set a course for reminding myself of how far I’ve come, how far I aim to go, and how silly it would be for me to go back or stop. I take time to ground myself. Realize who I am and what I am, then reaffirm those positive things I know of myself. The serum seeps into those infected parts and makes me rise from the darkness I’ve allowed to corrupt my mind.

So how can I do it? It’s not easy, but I do it because I can’t do anything else. I don’t want to. I do it by giving myself the freedom to fail but the comfort of knowing that I can always try again, and the triumph is in the trying.

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