My Inconvenient Journey for More

This year is all about me embracing inconvenience.  And fear.

Challenging myself.

I have moved out of my comfort zone into completely unknown, inconvenient territory. And I ’m anxious. If the well-known family therapist Virgina Satir were still alive she would ask me, “Are you anxious or are you excited?”

I’m both.

Last month I sold my small adobe mud house in Santa Fe.

My sweet mud home in Santa Fe surrounded by woods

I had never planned for New Mexico to be my forever home. The altitude and desert dryness did not suit me.

I could no longer postpone the inevitable overwhelm of selling most of my things (again), saying teary goodbyes to my half-sisters and nieces, new friends, and the coyote, deer, and birds that were my daily visitors for the past three and a half years.

Saying goodbye to my wild friends was one of the hardest things I have ever done.

But difficulty is an important factor for human experience. Convenience is all destination and no journey. And it can enslave us, dull us, and close off options for growth. I’m choosing the journey.

What am I going to do?

That’s the question everyone asks me. My answer goes something like this: I have a vague vision of traveling for a year, mostly in Africa. It’s a dream I’ve carried for a while but could not manifest for various reasons. Now, I have nothing standing in my way. Except the inconvenient fear and struggle of being a single woman in her sixties setting up a vagabond life with no home base. Just writing that brings on the anxious feelings.

As my year unfolds I will try to remain on the excited side of my anxiety (thank you Virgina Satir) and continually remind myself that struggle is not always the problem. It’s also the solution.

Let me know in the comments below if you would like me to post about my inconvenient journey resisting the stupefying power of safe and convenient and seeing what happens. Let me know if you would like to follow along through blog posts like this one.

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