thornypeach3:heavyweightheart:in addition to the fact that people just have different natural...

thornypeach3:

heavyweightheart:

in addition to the fact that people just have different natural rhythms, a big reason why we can’t seem to go to bed as early as we “should” is that nighttime is, for many of us, our safest and most fulfilling time of day. we don’t have to work, we won’t be contacted by bosses or insurance companies or collections agencies or other suffocating life business… we’re likely only to be contacted by our friends, or by no one at all. night time is release; it’s ours. we can rest or recreate. we can do things we actually want to do. who would choose to cut that short?? just to usher in the next morning when our lives are not our own again? nighttime is precious and nothing could be more normal than the desire to embrace this

I feel this on a deep level

This is the struggle of my entire life. I am an inherently nocturnal person who has to fit into an early morning life and it is NOT natural for me. Right now I have to wake up at 6:15am almost every day to work out, shower, and get to work, so I try to get at least 6 hours of sleep. I also don’t usually write much before 11pm, so I have this tiny window. Except that’s also when I have to do most of the rest of my living - you know, communicating with people, planning other projects like concerts that I’m putting together, pieces that I’m arranging, etc. It’s very limited but you also have to sleep, too. So frustrating!