Gaggermeister

A new friend of mine, Cassandra Dallet, with whom I shared a stage recently at Evan Karp's Quiet Lightning series in San Francisco, wrote a poem inspired by having read American Gangbang. I wanted to share it. 

Gaggermeister

I'm intrigued still 
wrestling with this man's story 
his agonizing over his love for a porno
a porno that is hard to believe is legal
it is apparently legal because it's a series
in this series
different girls on their knees 
mouth on dick close up
but she doesn't suck the dick
she is force fed the dick
throat fucked 
gagged 
sometimes she pukes 
and the guy with the dick 
slaps her face 
yup Slap Happy it's called.
He writes on her face with magic marker
things like slut bitch cocksucker whore
and when he cums he doesn't do it sexily
he does it violently.
All kinds of lines have been crossed here
all sorts of things that any man watching knows 
make it a snuff film
snuff cause the girl may be living
may have pocketed a few grand
and went on her merry way
but a piece of her dies 
every time some loser
jacks off to her gagging markered face
with each slap a scar is raised
out of site
down by her large intestine
snuggled up to her pancreas
maybe it will bitter into hate 
manifest as cancer
who knows 
the real damage.
but I'm not mad at this guy
a little horrified that he is turned on
that he jacks off to this mess on screen
I'm not mad
cause he is honest.
he admits girls like this snubbed him in high school
that he wanted to see them gag on his dick.
Which, I'm sure he imagines as big 
as the guy's in the skin flick.
I feel sorry for him.
He admits his obsession with it 
and loses his good girl.
Who was perfectly happy to give an honest blowjob
but get slapped in the face dude, really!?
Still I want to drop him a line
wonder if we can get down to the bottom 
of why we are all so fucked up.
Why I hate fucking my boyfriend because he isn't aggressive enough
yet he watches rape porno on my computer when I'm not at home.
And how I hate sucking his dick 
its too big and he's too unresponsive
Yet I love the whole face fucking 
forced gagging thing
as much as the next guy.
I was watching a scene 
the other night 
where the guy had a belt around the chicks neck 
and it was smokin' hot I was totally turned on.
Maybe we could talk about 
what it would take 
to make the perfect porno 
or the perfect love 
where our quirks and obsession blends 
into something sweet.
Something that doesn't leave us 
heaving up guilt 
or broken 
as yesterdays turkey carcass.