On Suicide…
I don’t know how you made it here. Maybe you’re contemplating about it, or maybe you had stumbled onto this page by accident. It doesn’t matter, it never does. After all, the only thing that does matter is what you take away from this article and how this influences you. If you’re contemplating suicide, please don’t do it.
Life is hard. You don’t need to experience the extremes harshness of it to know that. When someone stubbed their toe and goes ‘Ouch! That hurts!’, you understand that. Life, by nature, is difficult and filled with pain and displeasure. The only way to live without ever experiencing any form of social ridicule, personal loss, or any form of negative emotions is to segregate oneself from humans in general. Humanity’s biggest source of emotion welled from pain. Philosophers from many aeons ago contemplated the nature of Pain, and what it meant on a spiritual level.
Medieval Priests rationalised all the pain and evil to be a punishment inflicted for their own sins. As some sort of test of faith. As such, the word ‘Contrition’ was born. They cannot fathom why they were born or for what purpose were they there for. In an misguided attempt to pursue perfection, they decreed the only way to exonerate oneself from sin and to be purified is through suffering. All have sinned, and every little thing must be punished. The nature of suicide became abhorred and reviled by the priests and preachers of the Middle Ages in Europe, for they reasoned that Suicide is to turn away from God, from the good things in life.
Pain hurts in ways that doesn’t always display itself physically. Those who contemplates suicide usually do not contemplate so purely based off of physical suffering. What pushes them towards that edge is the emotions and the stress. It has been the same since the sawn of time. When people sees no hope and despair blots out the positive aspects of life…they found themselves trapped without a choice. Fundamentally, the nature of choice is not always the totality of their previous actions, but rather actions outside of their own control. Such things inspires despair and such things drives people to experience negative emotions more.
The illusion of this lack of choice came from repetition and stress. Breaking this cycle is far from easy. It is not a simple task, but it can be done. Even when life seems hopeless and no one seems to agree with your worldview or loves you…know that someone out there shares your pain. Someone out there wants to hear your story. Don’t give up in a hopeless situation.
The death of one influences many. People will mourn. Even those who only knew you in passing. To your family members, you are usually an intimate connection. A story that they share and they will be the first to grieve for you. your friends, those who knew you, they too, will grieve. Your teachers, your students, your employers, your employees, they will feel sadness when you leave. Don’t shut yourself off, rediscover the loved and the things you loved to hate. The passions and dreams that you chase.
It does not matter whether Life is meaningful. Empower yourself to make this decision to live. Discover your identity in the swirling miasmic sea that we call the internet. Start small, doodle in your sketchbook, sleep earlier. Drink tasteful tea. Take control because no one else is steering the boat. Everything is pointless; there are no rules. This. Is your freedom, and yours alone.
Choose Life. It may change.
