Turns Out, I Am Enough

I assumed our love would last forever

so I forgave the silence

I gave you space

which became an echoing chasm

I pretended it’s just for now

until I realized this is

how it will be

My heart full as the lush trees

feels sore and thirsting

as if I walked through

the dustiest of deserts with no water

Stuck in stasis

knowing this is the choice I make

for now

a glimmer of hope – was that a smile?

No, it was a grimace

Reality predicts continued silence

I want to hear the roar of the waves

see the sun rise and set

breathe in the air of rugged peaks

I wanted to do that with you

Instead, you chose silence

We both know it’s not the number of words

that creates silence

it’s the elusive disengagement

A ghost

between two worlds

no plan to live or problem solve

Surrendering

I live in the silence

making hard decisions

alone, feeling the loss

Finally understanding

that you don’t share

desires, hopes or dreams

maybe you don’t have them

It was always me that wanted more

Love’s illusion

tricking myself into believing

that time would break the silence

and I would be enough

It turns out that I Am Enough

You were the lucky one ~ You had it all

You left ~ silently ~ Or maybe you’re still here?

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©Alexis Rose, Photo by Derek Truninger on Unsplash

Thank you for reading my books: If I Could Tell You How It Feels, and Untangled, A Story of Resilience, Courage, and Triumph