note to a soulmate

Dearheart, you once asserted that I would never have spoken to you had we not been “introduced” on social media. I told you no, that’s not true, our souls found each other and they would do so in any place or time or circumstances. Even if one or both of us was currently dwelling in the skin of a different species. I recognised you from first contact, and before that it was our soul’s contract to reconnect which inspired each of us to display ourselves on that raw vegan connection group. Only once before have I done such a thing, by placing an ad in a progressive London magazine when I was 25 years old, and a depressed recluse. From that I encountered significant others, one of whom I am still in contact with.

My thoughts just flashed back to that night we spent together under the stars on the sand beside some friendly rocks : in Joshua Tree National Park was it? Eva slept on one side of me and you on the other. I cannot recall a time I felt more happy, safe and in the perfect place. Apart from the night I spent gazing into Iona’s eyes on the day she was born. That same cosmic glow, that same assurance of divine protection, that same bathing in expanded awareness.

By stark contrast, in a really bad time of my life when I felt alone in a sea of indifferent, mocking and malevolent people was a soul shrivelment, a shutdown of higher faculties, as my body went into survival mode. Frankly I am amazed to have survived so long in such a toxic environment as this suffering world humans have so desecrated, desacralised and damaged. And arguably my core purpose is reaching fulfilment as the appreciation of the interconnectivity of all life starts to dawn on the minds of the masses. The beginning of respect and humility, the stepping up to humanity’s first ever job : of Guardianship on this floating bejewelled ship – Gaia. I ask myself why I would want to stay on for the messy rebuilding phase, the deconstructive rewilding of a global war zone.

Then I reflect upon your words, shared so long ago in California : that your core mission is precisely that, and hence your time is just arriving. Your star is in the ascendant precious One, as you always knew it would be. So here I am to remind you of these things, to tell you how much I love and appreciate knowing that you are incarnate upon this incredible planet alongside me. I did not need to reach across and physically touch you at Joshua Tree and I don’t need to now. We are not merely touching as spiritual beings we are intertwined in the most free, beautiful, pure, indissolubly connected way.

And so it is, so it shall remain: beyond transitions, through dimensions, to infinity and beyond. Amen.

p.s. I never could bring myself to make marriage vows to anyone, even when it promised great material security, physical pleasure, and exciting opportunities. Such lures were not even tempting, for I am a very sage fish who has been swimming these oceans of experience for the longest time