Something Just Occured To Me

I just realized I haven't really posted here in 2019. It feels as if New Years was a month ago, but we're four or five months into the year already. I've spent three months taking thotty selfies and planning new releases. The latter half of 2019 will be very busy for me, but the year has already showed me a lot and I feel like I've grown a lot.

I had to take a hard look at myself and my habits, my mental health, and redefine who I am and what I want, because I was only stewing and festering in negativity and bitterness and doubt.

So far this year I've turned 23, let go of a heap of self-hatred I was holding onto, recorded a few crazy songs, and shaved my head bald again. Last year I was suicidal, we lost a bunch of our pets, I forgot who I was and sank into a deep depression and focused on the ugly parts of the world, which brought out ugly parts of me. That's over now, obviously. It only makes sense to focus on the present and the future, not a past I can't change.

So, here's a list of things I want to do this year:


Get out of debtWrite three novels minimumLose 20 poundsWear my glasses moreGet a new phoneHave a ton of bonfiresSketch and paint way more than last yearTry AMS ads for the first timeRelease 2 EPsHit 800 Insta followersBuy more underwearIt might seem like a stupid list or a bunch of small  stuff, and I'm not sticking to it religiously, but I think it helps a lot to have a general goal or two in mind.



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