The Driver

Last Thursday, I drove from Palm Springs to Tucson to visit one of my childhood friends.  It is 400 miles of freeway, sand, cactus, and massive rock formations.  My rental car had some whizbang technology features.  The first was an adaptive cruise control that allowed the car to automatically adjust throttle and brake depending on the distance between the vehicle in front of me.  After I set this feature, a note flashed on the car screen asking if I would like to engage “assisted steering”.  My first reaction was WTF?

I clicked the yes button and the car began to automatically steer and maintained the center of the lane.  There are sensors in the wheel that require at least one hand to be on the wheel.  My skeptical-self felt that the car would quickly run off the road.   The auto pilot was easily displaced by tapping the brake or simply turning the wheel against the slight resistance of the automatic feature.  The first curve was nerve racking, but the auto performed as advertised.  I did not become complacent, but quickly realized that I could trust the technology.

Looking back at my life, I believe there is an internal guidance system that will take me where I need to go.  This intuitive system works best when allowed to operate freely as designed.  The errors begin to appear when my mind determines that it knows best and overrides the automatic pilot.  If I let it flow, synchronicity foods my life.  When I engage my need to control, I encounter rough roads and crashes.

For me, the inner guidance comes from something much bigger than me.  Some call it god, spirit, or the universe.  What I call it does not matter to you.  What you call it does not matter to me.  It is a feeling of circulating in the flow of things as opposed to the world circulating around me.

My friend Bill Bennett made a movie and wrote a book about intuition.  Here is a passage from his book:

I DON’T MAKE DECISIONS ANYMORE, I FEEL THEM

What does that mean?

When you make a decision, you use an analytical process. You use your intelligence to process the information your intellect presents to you. You consider the advantages, the disadvantages, you weigh up the benefits, the risks, the upsides, the downsides. You refer to your storehouse of past experience, you include so-called “best practice, you take into account how your decision will be perceived by others, and perhaps most importantly you consider the consequences – what will happen after you make that decision.

After going through this whole process, you then make an informed decision – informed by all the knowledge and information this rational process has presented to you, filtered through a judgment system. You judge what’s the right decision to make.

Sometimes this process of making a decision can be instantaneous, but sometimes you can mull over a decision for days, weeks, even years. And often, having to make a decision burdens you. It can weigh heavily upon you.

I don’t do that anymore.

I feel my decisions.

I’ve learned to ignore the rational process of making a decision, and – if it feels right, I do it. No question.   

I understand now that making a decision is based on an intellectual process that tries to keep me in the past, that tries to contain me in what’s gone before. Making a decision is informed by past knowledge, accepted rules of thought or conduct, a societal or cultural collective belief, parental or peer conditioning, and fear.

Fear often informs the decisions that we make.

We don’t even realize it most times, because it’s become so ingrained in our way of thinking. We believe that fear is an essential mechanism that’s purpose is to keep us safe.  

This is why I don’t make decisions anymore.

It limits me.

When you feel a decision, you open yourself up to all the possibilities of the Universe. You open yourself up to what’s boundless. Because what you’re doing is shifting the decision making process from the hard-wiring of your intellect to the quantum environment of your energetic system.

In the quantum environment there are no boundaries. It’s limitless. And that’s where your mystical intuition lies. It doesn’t lie in the hard wiring of your ego based rational mind, it lies in the unlimited potential of your multi-dimensional energetic system.

I now don’t anticipate outcomes. I’m not afraid of the outcomes. I’m open and awake to everything that can come at me, and to me, knowing that my intuition will never present to me a bad thing. Remember what Caroline Myss said: How do you know what’s a bad thing?

I now welcome the boundless possibilities that Source has in store for me, and I don’t retreat in fear, because I know I am protected, I am guided, and only good can come from this.

That’s why I now feel decisions, I no longer make them.