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This is Lizzie Ford's inspirational story that is featured in the Indie Chicks Anthology.ThePhoenix and the Darkness
I'vebeen running from The Darkness since I left home at the age of 17. I escaped a broken family to the military,found it unwelcoming to creative non-conformists but fulfilled mycommitment. The first man I dated was adrunkard who suffered from post traumatic stress disorder; the second rapedme. The rest of my time in the militarywas a blur of men, the different places I lived and The Darkness stalking me. At the end of my tour, I set my world on fireto keep the Darkness away, abandoned everything and everyone, and emerged fromthe flames like the mythical Phoenix. I ranhome to Ohio. I didn't stay long andcontinued onward to New York, where I reinvented myself for a very brief periodof contentedness.Itdidn't last. Darkness, fire, rebirth, anda few years, men and states later, I ended up in the arms of yet another unworthyman. I followed him to DC, bore themental abuse, and tried to tell myself this was the best life would everget. Itook a job in a field I didn't care for and ended up running fromjob-to-job-to-job, unable to find a place where I was happy. I was hit by a drunk driver at 26, leaving mewith a long lifetime of constant pain. Ihad a miscarriage, gave all my money to the unworthy man and couldn't pay mybills despite the good job. I moved fromVirginia to Maryland and back to Virginia, unable to shake the pursuingDarkness. Finally, I put all mybelongings in storage, ready to set my word afire and flee once again. Iworked up the nerve to ditch the dysfunctional man, but before I could run far,I met the man who would become my first husband. He wanted normal things: stability, house, family. I convinced myself if I had these things, theDarkness would be gone. He needed amother, not a wife, but I married him anyway and prayed it was enough.Itwasn't. I set my world afire once more,and I fled him, too. I put everything Ivalued in my truck, grabbed the dog, and left. Away from DC, the east coast, everything I owned, my first husband. I ran to Texas to a new job and divorced thefirst husband. Yet again, I wasreborn. Soon after, I met my soulmate. Some part of me knew I couldn'tkeep running if I wanted to keep him. I turnedaround to see if The Darkness still chased me. After fifteen years of running, The Darknesswas closer than ever.Itold the man who would become my second husband to stay away from me – I wasdangerous. He saw The Darkness, and hesaw me.You're brilliant andbeautiful. I love you, Darkness and all,hesaid. But if you don't deal with it and accept the fate for which you wereput on this earth, you'll be consumed by it.Icouldn't yet face the Darkness even with his support, but I could see how wrongmy path was. My path wasn't a career Iloathed, and it wasn't ignoring my true gift: writing. So I worked full time and wrote fulltime. I found true joy for the firsttime in my life, but The Darkness got too close. I ran away from that job - the only job I'dever remotely enjoyed. This time, I keptmy only ally in life - my guardian angel and partner. Itook a new job in a new state. With myhusband and my writing, I saw The Darkness recede, and I grew happy. Instead of looking over my shoulder, Istarted looking into the future. I vowedto run towards something instead of away from something. I wasn't just reborn – I was alive for the first time in my life.Andthen, this past summer, I tripped. TheDarkness swallowed me. As in one of myupcoming novels, The Darkness turned me inside out. I couldn't go to work and could barely leavethe house. It pinned me beneath it, andthe more I tried to run, the heavier it got. Everything I'd run from in life was there: my near-poverty upbringing;the breaking apart of my family when I was a kid; my struggle with my weightand social anxiety issues; with finding acceptance at any job; with men anddysfunctional relationships; the pending financial disaster I'd been building;fear of failure and ending up as miserable as my parents. I thought I'd suffocate, until the Darknessspoke to me.You can run again and risklosing the man you love, or you can face me and be happy, it said.I want to be happy, I replied.Then do what you must.It's not that easy. I'm scared.Sometimes life only givesus difficult choices, but you still must choose. I am a part of you. You must accept me anddeal with me before you can move on, it said.Ithought hard as I looked at all the things I'd accumulated that werebankrupting me financially and emotionally. I looked at what made me happy in life: my husband and my writing. I saw how I'd hurt my most precious treasures- and myself - by setting my world on fire whenever The Darkness got too close.This is gonna hurt, I told The Darkness.Not for long, it said. Youonly have to do this once.Inthat moment, I made my choice. I wouldface The Darkness within me, no matter how hard it was. I loved my husband too much to hurt him more,and I was sick of being a coward. I tooka leave of absence in early September to deal with my past as well as the depressionand anxiety that have haunted me my whole life. Writing has always been my solace and my passion. Through it, I'll heal theworld I broke and my own soul, and become the partner my husband deserves. ThePhoenix will be reborn once more, not of fire, but of Darkness, and will emergestronger than ever.
This is one story from Indie Chicks: 25 Women 25Personal Stories available on Amazonand Barnes& Noble. To read all of the stories, buy your copy today. Also included are sneak peeks into 25 novels! My paranormal romance novel, Abigail , is one of thenovels featured. All proceeds go to the Susan G. Komen Foundation for BreastCancer.
Description of the "War of Gods" seriesThe "War of Gods" series by Lizzy Ford is a paranormal romance series depicting the ongoing struggle between good and evil - and the immortals and their human mates who are caught in the middle. The first book, "Damian's Oracle" (released October 2011) is the story of the White God and his Oracle, the cool beauty, Sofia. The second book, "Damian's Assassin," (released November 2011) is about the White God's assassin and the woman who heals his heart and body. The third book will be released 02 Dec and tells the tale of the White God's chief immortal and the mysterious, beautiful Magician he risks his life to protect.Lizzy's info:Website: http://www.guerrillawordfare.com/Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/LizzyFordBooksTwitter: http://twitter.com/#!/LizzyFord2010Google : https://plus.google.com/b/106728579413949863215/pages/getstarted#106728579413949863215/postsGR: http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/4558309.Lizzy_FordAmazon:http://www.amazon.com/Lizzy-Ford/e/B004XTTYOC/Damian'sOracle(currently free on Amazon)
Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Damians-Oracle-War-Gods-ebook/dp/B004JN0KHM/
BN: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/damians-oracle-lizzy-ford/1029664032iTunes: http://itunes.apple.com/us/book/damians-oracle/id416014301?mt=11
This is Lizzie Ford's inspirational story that is featured in the Indie Chicks Anthology.ThePhoenix and the Darkness
I'vebeen running from The Darkness since I left home at the age of 17. I escaped a broken family to the military,found it unwelcoming to creative non-conformists but fulfilled mycommitment. The first man I dated was adrunkard who suffered from post traumatic stress disorder; the second rapedme. The rest of my time in the militarywas a blur of men, the different places I lived and The Darkness stalking me. At the end of my tour, I set my world on fireto keep the Darkness away, abandoned everything and everyone, and emerged fromthe flames like the mythical Phoenix. I ranhome to Ohio. I didn't stay long andcontinued onward to New York, where I reinvented myself for a very brief periodof contentedness.Itdidn't last. Darkness, fire, rebirth, anda few years, men and states later, I ended up in the arms of yet another unworthyman. I followed him to DC, bore themental abuse, and tried to tell myself this was the best life would everget. Itook a job in a field I didn't care for and ended up running fromjob-to-job-to-job, unable to find a place where I was happy. I was hit by a drunk driver at 26, leaving mewith a long lifetime of constant pain. Ihad a miscarriage, gave all my money to the unworthy man and couldn't pay mybills despite the good job. I moved fromVirginia to Maryland and back to Virginia, unable to shake the pursuingDarkness. Finally, I put all mybelongings in storage, ready to set my word afire and flee once again. Iworked up the nerve to ditch the dysfunctional man, but before I could run far,I met the man who would become my first husband. He wanted normal things: stability, house, family. I convinced myself if I had these things, theDarkness would be gone. He needed amother, not a wife, but I married him anyway and prayed it was enough.Itwasn't. I set my world afire once more,and I fled him, too. I put everything Ivalued in my truck, grabbed the dog, and left. Away from DC, the east coast, everything I owned, my first husband. I ran to Texas to a new job and divorced thefirst husband. Yet again, I wasreborn. Soon after, I met my soulmate. Some part of me knew I couldn'tkeep running if I wanted to keep him. I turnedaround to see if The Darkness still chased me. After fifteen years of running, The Darknesswas closer than ever.Itold the man who would become my second husband to stay away from me – I wasdangerous. He saw The Darkness, and hesaw me.You're brilliant andbeautiful. I love you, Darkness and all,hesaid. But if you don't deal with it and accept the fate for which you wereput on this earth, you'll be consumed by it.Icouldn't yet face the Darkness even with his support, but I could see how wrongmy path was. My path wasn't a career Iloathed, and it wasn't ignoring my true gift: writing. So I worked full time and wrote fulltime. I found true joy for the firsttime in my life, but The Darkness got too close. I ran away from that job - the only job I'dever remotely enjoyed. This time, I keptmy only ally in life - my guardian angel and partner. Itook a new job in a new state. With myhusband and my writing, I saw The Darkness recede, and I grew happy. Instead of looking over my shoulder, Istarted looking into the future. I vowedto run towards something instead of away from something. I wasn't just reborn – I was alive for the first time in my life.Andthen, this past summer, I tripped. TheDarkness swallowed me. As in one of myupcoming novels, The Darkness turned me inside out. I couldn't go to work and could barely leavethe house. It pinned me beneath it, andthe more I tried to run, the heavier it got. Everything I'd run from in life was there: my near-poverty upbringing;the breaking apart of my family when I was a kid; my struggle with my weightand social anxiety issues; with finding acceptance at any job; with men anddysfunctional relationships; the pending financial disaster I'd been building;fear of failure and ending up as miserable as my parents. I thought I'd suffocate, until the Darknessspoke to me.You can run again and risklosing the man you love, or you can face me and be happy, it said.I want to be happy, I replied.Then do what you must.It's not that easy. I'm scared.Sometimes life only givesus difficult choices, but you still must choose. I am a part of you. You must accept me anddeal with me before you can move on, it said.Ithought hard as I looked at all the things I'd accumulated that werebankrupting me financially and emotionally. I looked at what made me happy in life: my husband and my writing. I saw how I'd hurt my most precious treasures- and myself - by setting my world on fire whenever The Darkness got too close.This is gonna hurt, I told The Darkness.Not for long, it said. Youonly have to do this once.Inthat moment, I made my choice. I wouldface The Darkness within me, no matter how hard it was. I loved my husband too much to hurt him more,and I was sick of being a coward. I tooka leave of absence in early September to deal with my past as well as the depressionand anxiety that have haunted me my whole life. Writing has always been my solace and my passion. Through it, I'll heal theworld I broke and my own soul, and become the partner my husband deserves. ThePhoenix will be reborn once more, not of fire, but of Darkness, and will emergestronger than ever.
This is one story from Indie Chicks: 25 Women 25Personal Stories available on Amazonand Barnes& Noble. To read all of the stories, buy your copy today. Also included are sneak peeks into 25 novels! My paranormal romance novel, Abigail , is one of thenovels featured. All proceeds go to the Susan G. Komen Foundation for BreastCancer.
Description of the "War of Gods" seriesThe "War of Gods" series by Lizzy Ford is a paranormal romance series depicting the ongoing struggle between good and evil - and the immortals and their human mates who are caught in the middle. The first book, "Damian's Oracle" (released October 2011) is the story of the White God and his Oracle, the cool beauty, Sofia. The second book, "Damian's Assassin," (released November 2011) is about the White God's assassin and the woman who heals his heart and body. The third book will be released 02 Dec and tells the tale of the White God's chief immortal and the mysterious, beautiful Magician he risks his life to protect.Lizzy's info:Website: http://www.guerrillawordfare.com/Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/LizzyFordBooksTwitter: http://twitter.com/#!/LizzyFord2010Google : https://plus.google.com/b/106728579413949863215/pages/getstarted#106728579413949863215/postsGR: http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/4558309.Lizzy_FordAmazon:http://www.amazon.com/Lizzy-Ford/e/B004XTTYOC/Damian'sOracle(currently free on Amazon)
Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Damians-Oracle-War-Gods-ebook/dp/B004JN0KHM/
BN: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/damians-oracle-lizzy-ford/1029664032iTunes: http://itunes.apple.com/us/book/damians-oracle/id416014301?mt=11
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