Yes — I am a Determined Traveler in Writer’s Train!
Image Source: Unsplash, Photo by Green ChameleonI am sitting on my couch, gulping my sip of strong bitter tea and I’m thinking what is more bitter: my tea or my writing journey, which continues to give me solid punches.
Sometimes I feel life is like a train which travels into all deserts and rivers, light and darkness, Winter and Summers. Till reaching the destination, many stations pass. I am also a passenger on this type of train. I am bearing all seasons of my journey just with my belief and faith that one day I’ll also reach my station. But the problem is that other passengers know about the place set for the end of a journey, but I don’t.
I’m afraid I’ve bored you with my philosophy, but there is a reason for giving this example. It’s my goal to elaborate on my intuition which is hidden in the angry part of my heart. For two years I’ve been continuously running in the race of my writing journey. Yes, I am just a common girl who has no golden spoon(lucky charm), but I am a hard worker and I know this is my power — yet I’m feeling my power is not working more to motivate me.
The dream that I shall be the best creative writer
Because only I alone believe that one day I will find success. Not my family nor my friends' circle; they constantly criticize me and tell me I can’t find success in my writing journey. They don’t trust in my dream world which I’ve been creating for many years —The dream that I shall be the best creative writer!
I don’t know but if truth be told I always wanted to write, not for others, but I write because words are my breath. When I write something to share for the betterment of this era, I sigh — deeply.
Nearly two years I’ve been trying to write perfectly. Between those years I’ve received many rejections from the world pretending there is no area for me. In fact, everyone pressures me persistently, for leaving the way, leaving this train. I can’t approach my station.
But the fact is, sometimes I also can’t understand where I’m going? Where is my station, actually? Yes, I’m fighting, running, bearing all the seasons. But will I get to my dream of success? Or in reality, am I riding on the wrong train? Yep — I often break like this and generally it’s human nature to ask these questions yourself when the sad moments come.
Yet, except all this, I’ve determined that the day will come when I’ll get the part of the sky which will be completely mine! Yes, struggling for two years (I still have 97 followers), I still don't have the support of my family or friends, but my heart never wants to accept or concede. I’m just traveling with my faith and hoping it will take me to writing success’s station.
I don’t know — when my straight road will take a turn to my destiny, but I’ll write. I’ll try to be a part of noble persons who help the world for the better. This is my wish and you better believe I have a lot of hidden tears in my eyes. I write from my heart!
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